I have lost the fight

[No_life]

I am tired. All the years of struggle with the self has to come to an end. Something broke within me yesterday and i am inconsolable. It is over 24 hours now and i want peace. Will my parents never love me back even for once? My friends advised me to move out of my home and come out of this mess but can we ever move on from our own parents?
I have lost it all. The hope is dying from within each day, day by day.

[eyeteachscience]

Dear No_Life, No, we cannot move on from our past with our parents, but we can move on with our perception of who we were and are in relationship to them. This does not have to be a trap you cannot get out of. I offer here the National Suicide Hotline - they chat and they are available by phone: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ You sound so bereft my heart is broken for you. Sending you a long, comforting hug.