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Sorry but I need to express some feelings; hope you don't mind?
I really need to vent somewhere...

I am a worthless piece of rubbish.
I always mess things up.
I am a selfish piece of rubbish.
I always hurt people who I love and care about dearly.
I always end up pushing everyone away.
I always end up screwing everything up and loosing people.
I always end up saying the wrong things to people...

I am just a stupid, stupid, pathetic little girl.
Aren't i?

Sorry for venting out...
I feel a whole lot better after that....
I feel a lot more fresh and a lot more calmer and happier now I've got all that off my chest. Feels good.

Sorry again guys.

Sorry about this; but need to vent out again(as I can't physically scream here)....

ARGHHHHHHHH!!
I am so pissed off!! Pissed off with the staff here, pissed off with my parents. Mostly pissed off with myself.

Rant over.

Pissed off with myself still; but happy at the same time? What the heck?!!! I am angry with myself but don't know why?
I am happy and hyper at the same time too?
Huh? Doesn't make any sense to me...

I just need a good vent to someone!!!
A nurse maybe? My support worker?
The counsellor? But they might think I'm crazy?

I seriously need to get myself a stress ball or punch a pillow or something, am on the edge of lossing it and screaming my head off. Aha, now that would be funny to see hmm.

I just seem to be so angry with myself, so angry for upsetting so many people and making then hate me?
I guess I deserve it, but why am I angry?

Oh Abbie!
Grow some balls and shut up.
Grow some balls and be positive and STOP being so damn annoying.

Needed that rant with myself.

Sorry guys, I had to let it all out.

Suicidal? Why? I don't know... Get a shocking grip and grow some balls and stop being so damn selfish!!!
Come on Abbie- you are better than this.... You CAN beat this and you CAN fight this and recover!!!

I feel so angry with myself... I want to scream. I need to punch something, but what?
A pillow?
A punch bag?
Ahhhhh!!! Pillow it is.

Punched a pillow for the first time and it felt so good!!! I think it's a good way to express all the anger and tension built up inside me. I feel a lot better now after that, however... I still feel quite pissed off with myself?
I just feel like self-harming because I'm angry with myself?

Seriously need to get a grip.
These mood swings are annoying.

Hi Abbz,
Uhh. Hmm....Have you seen the green lizard on the commercials?
I can't mention the actual name, except if u still need 2 thrash on something- LOL!
Sorry if ur confused. Heehee eee

Huh?
I'm a little confused LOL...
What green lizard?
I will just scream and punch the pillow- it works aha...

Sorry for all the vents.. Am pretty pissed off.

Pissed off with the duty nurse.... Pissed off with the staff here, treating me like I'm a little girl... I'm a young adult!
Pissed off with parents and pissed off with myself again huh? :/

Screamed into my pillow again!!! Ahh!!!

Can I ask; how can I prove that?
I'm 17, nearly 18...
I'm not a child anymore?

Pissed off isn't the word right now!!!
Stupid crisis team pissing me off today argh!!! Just need to scream so loud right now and punch a pillow!!! Never been so pissed off. Wish the crisis team would just leave me alone and give me some space to breathe.
Gosh!!

Sorry about this little rant.
Rant over.

Join the club

Huh?
You are in hospital on a section?(so mental health unit)?!!
Because that is where I am.

Am so pissed off with being here now!!! But know is for the best...

Need to scream ahhhhhhh!!!!!
Pissed off with myself again!!! Pissed off with everything.

Found a healthy way to let out ally anger....

1- either to write down all my feelings
2- punch a pillow.
3- scream into a pillow.

These things work for me..
But still feel like a screaming at the staff as they are annoying me!!!

I want to argue with myself as I am annoying myself? How is that possible? I must be going crazy. Hmm.