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Hey, you all
Why is it that I feel like I'm still in diapers sometimes? Of course I am metaphorically speaking. No weird diaper fetish going on in my wonderful, wonderful world.
But...I learned a long time ago that the more I learn, the more I realize how much I don't really know...which nudges me to ponder upon the certainty that I will grow to learn more. Of course, the acquiring of only more knowledge will both serve to enlighten me, and remind me I am a dumb ass. Here is where diapers fit into the crazy mix. Pampers are for babies...but 'brain pampers' are maybe for me.

I walk through this life, often stumbling, sometimes falling. The world around me is changing, as is about everyone I know. I'm altered in my own personal ways-- ever learning, as I pray for wisdom and understanding. So, as I said in my prior paragraph, I realize that the more I learn, there is much more yet to know. I really know...nothing. The moment I eventually pass from this earth, I will not have attained the vastness of information there exists to know. Please don't get me wrong, though. I am still intrigued to discover more of what's presently hidden. However, what we call a "genius" is also in 'brain diapers!' One can be the most intelligent being on earth...and still know close to nothing. This universe contains knowledge we can't even dream to conceive of! Truly, who is a "genius?"

Knowledge comes with understanding. In other words, one must comprehend what they've learned to obtain that particular knowledge. Well, knowledge becomes more complicated, considering that understanding exists in layers. (or depth) We can learn something new today, and believe we've full comprehension of it, and throughout the years our understanding deepens. Knowledge is like a seed that sprouts with time.

It gets so much more complicated to further go into. I just feel that in the vast scheme of things, I'm in my 'baby-brain diapers.' Essentially, I really don't know a thing.

Throughout my life's journey, I've definitely absorbed my share of pain, abuse, and loneliness. I've also experienced love. The horribly sad thing is that the good never seems to last. Something happens, and it fades slowly away. One of my problems is feeling secure. When things are safe, stable, and okay, there's on.a voice crying deep down within. It's almost like my subconscious is already mourning over my future loss of stability. I realize this is a result of a very unstable life. Hopefully, this will change. (my fear of losing any security I presently have) I have issues with believing that I'm really safe, even when I am.

Sorry for blabbering, on...and...on.

I hear you 4Everme. Knowledge and understanding are two very different things. So are safety and feeling safe. But a wise man made the point that, Insecurity and the desire to feel safe ARE the same thing [Alan Watts (great guy to read about and read from BTW) wrote a book called the "Wisdom of Insecurity"].

I have a sense that my father, because of his childhood, never felt all that safe as a father. I think he spent most of his life working all the time to make his family more secure. But if Watts is right (and I believe he is) the magnitude of your desire for safety (security) is the magnitude of your insecurity (feelings of not being safe). Said a different way, the more you focus on being safe, the less safe you feel.

I think I picked up a sort of feeling of eminent disaster from my father. OK, so that's a bit of knowledge I may have picked up. Where's the wisdom part? Well, first, "The more time I spend figuring out how to be safe, the less safe I feel", translates also into , "There is little correlation between feeling safe and being safe". Neither is real. They are just our own mental concepts. We can go ahead and define what our life would look like for us to be safe and, if it's not what our life looks like right now, all we are doing is pushing safety safely out of reach. What is the wisdom of seeing that type of security? Things can and will happen whether we choose (yes we choose) to feel safe or not.







And as for diapers, well;
Sometimes they still leak (nothings infallible).
It's OK to wear them on your head, just not while driving (take my advice).
I don't know if I want to get to the age where I need them again (although I suppose they're a badge of honour).
Always dispose of nappies properly (never out the window of a moving car).

Yes Frame,
Insecurity and the desire to feel safe are basically the same thing. In my opinion, this idea the man came up with was common sense. (can't recall the name you mentioned).

Where did you get the word nappies for diapers? I hadn't heard that term prior to now. Your last paragragh? Funny! Lol. ....nappies?!