Hi aviator227 thanks for sharing your worries with us.
I would suggest you try sharing them with someone else too.I can understand your apprehension about talking with your parents.
Is there a teacher or school psychologist you could talk to?
The important thing that you should be aware of is that you are not alone..there are people out there who care about you and can help.We have to find them though.. they won`t come if you don`t ask.
Another thought ,if the personal contact scares you at this moment then try a Crisis Hotline.
You can find more info about them here:
http://www.depression-understood.org/in ... ontact.htm
I really hope this little snippet of my thoughts help you.
Please let me know how you go on.
See ya soon