Despair from cognitive difficulties

[jkobb510]

I dont actually have depression but I am feeling hopeless because I have severe, uncontrollable attention problems where I always feel daydreamy or i just keep thinking about movies or music. I cannot even concentrate on the simplest tasks like washing dishes and i always get yelled at my part-time job at Dairy Queen even though i tried so hard. I feel so mentally dysfunctional and seriously lack common sense. For example, I forget to give change to the customer. Im 18 and I feel like i'll be screwed in the real-world and my plan to be pharmacist may be crushed if I keep this up. I've tried praying and trusting in God , meditation for a month,Strattera, Adderall, Coffee, Vyvanse, Concerta/Ritalin, Trying to confident, Focalin, Meditation for a month, Klonopin, Lorazapam, Valium, Weed, St, Johns Wort, Calcium, Magnesium, B-Vitamins, Valerian Root, Lecithin, Gingko Biloba, Fish Oil, Hypnosis, Deep Breathing,Changing my diet, Exercise, Positive-thinking, attention training like "luminosity",gaining knowledge and all kinds of different therapy. I'm feeling a bit helpless but I'm living because I don't want devastate people who love me if kill myself and watching movies brighten my days a bit.

[Destination]

I dont actually have depression but I am feeling hopeless because I have severe, uncontrollable attention problems where I always feel daydreamy or i just keep thinking about movies or music.

Who has decided that you have this problem? Maybe it is just that a job at the local DQ is boring to you. Does your attention stray when you are watching movies or music that interests you?

Please don't give up on yourself! Perhaps what you need is not medication or meditation, but to find things to do that suit your inquisitive personality?

[St8arrow]

I agree with Destination.