Sometimes it's wrong to walk away

[Mysticalflame]

I have this very bad habit.

I have a bunch of good friends who are as close to me as family. But sometimes, I feel out of sync with them. Though we had known each other for nearly 6 years, there are times where I felt so left out. I often stood outside of the circle, not knowing when to join in their conversation. It was so awkward and I felt that no one in the family notices me. No one know I was upset or neglected.

So some times when they asked me out, I'll reject them. Because they just don't care about me. I know they do care, but why nobody ever sees that I'm sad & needed someone? And after knowing they had went out without me, it just confirmed my thoughts that they just don't care, even though it was me who had rejected them.

Now I turn down my friends' invitation because I know they don't care about me. Even if I felt miserable, they'll never know.