self harm regrets :(

[jj]

im so saddened and i just cant cope anymore with my scars on top of my depression. how can i heal when i have this constant ugly reminder. and no i dont see them as a badge of honour... it makes me hate myself even more for doing that to myself... so any progress made will always be undone when i look down at my arms. i wish i could start fresh.

i know scars fade... mine usually take 2-3weeks to heal and abit longer to fade... but when i started university 6months ago it was so hard and i self harmed so badly. and these are still very pink and red and not smooth at the surface, theyre not even on their way to healing. whywhywhy it makes me feel like im always going to be stuck this way.

oh man and i just thought about my wedding day. what am i going to do then. i feel like they are never ever ever going to go away

im so upset :'(((((( i need a hugg

[St8arrow]

Hello JJ

Injuring yourself like you are saying is usually an indication that your emotional pain inside is so great that you are almost compelled to cut yourself on the outside so that someone will realize that all is not well with you.

I don't have any brilliant ideas to offer you and yet what follows may help you. I am currently reading a book whose title I can't come up with right now. To my surprise, it mentions that when Martin Luther King was a teenager, he tried to commit suicide on two different occasions.

I'm hoping that you will react to this story by realizing that even the best and most honorable of people have had problems in the past. It is entirely possible that the future will find you living a happy and productive life.

It is only natural to try to conceal such injuries as you have told us about, as much as possible, but if necessary, that is, if someone comments about them, tell the truth as much as possible. Tell them that it happened during a time when you made mistakes that you are in the process of overcoming and you are proud of yourself for trying to do so.

[dd-va]

(((((((((((( jj )))))))))))))))))
You are a beautiful girl! Anyone that truly loves you will be able to look past your scars and see the beauty that is there. We all see that here, the scars are just a part of who you are! I am sorry you are having such a hard time, we are all always here for you!