no way out

[paulapjseven]

I am feeling that there is no way out of this deep depression I am experiencing. I have been awaiting an appointment with a psychiatrist, I'm on a long waiting list. My medications have been changed many,many times so far and nothing has even come close to helping me feel better about life. I am afraid that nothing will help me. I don't always allow myself to tell someone exactly how bad I really feel. I may sometimes hint but never come right out and say, "I want to kill myself". I have tried to kill myself a couple of weeks ago and I failed. I am afraid of worrying someone and sometimes sugar-coat my answers when asked how I'm doing. I see a therapist weekly which helps a small amount, but he is not a psychiatrist who can prescribe meds. I just feel like nothing anyone says to me makes me feel that life is worth living. It would be so easy to down a bunch of pills and alcohol or take a gun and shoot myself. I don't know what to do, I have run out of patience with the meds. and with waiting for my appt. What can I do to help myself?

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( paulapjseven )))))))))))))))))

Don't give up. That is what you can do for yourself. A hard thing to do, but grab on to whatever it is that keeps you going, and keep trying.

Seems like a silly or impossible thing to do, but with determination you can.

Warmie

[paulapjseven]

I don't have the determination I need. I don't have much of anything, no motivation, no self esteem, no self confidence, no will to live, since my husband left me for someone else after being married for 27 years, and divorced me.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( paulapjseven )))))))))))))))))

Just another warn hug for you.

Warmie

[Obayan]

((( paula )))) big hugs and warm wishes going your way.