I Feel The Need To Cry

[xken728]

I feel the need to cry ,so much pain and and anxiety locked inside almost to much to take at times .Anger creeps in at the frustration of never recieving any help ive not had acsess to a phychartrist for months now as i havent been able to travel .Its the old senario ,he looks ok so he,ll be fine .But im not fine am i ,inside my mind the constant battle to remain normal is hard work in itself ,then theres the phycical pain the constant headaces and back ache ,so tired i could lay in bed all day .Waking up in the morning and wondering how i can carry on and face another long day Im tired its been 45 years now ive been tormented in one way or another ,Im not stupid it wont end will it ever .But i will not be beaten i must never give in to the darkness that is with me on my every waking and follows me in to my dreams to turn them to nightmares
So just to be able to bawl out my tears just for a few minutes to feel them burn my cheeks and have them fall to the floor and watch them pool and
slowly dissapear ,and maybe i would feel a little pain evaporate ,if only for a short while .
Just until the next time i Feel the need to cry. xn728

[jj]

((((((((ken)))))))

i just have to tell you your strength to not give up is totally inspiring for me. keep that fighting spirit... reading your determination to not give up, ever, really fills me with hope and strength. hope you can get some relief from crying even if its only short lived. *hugs*

jj

[crystalgaze]

I feel similarly as the title..... but with mine, I probably won't cry. I'm not really feeling much these days.... (Bah, humbug!)

((((((((((( Ken ))))))))))))))))) Boy, do I miss you.

[hollyann]

(((((((((Ken)))))))) Cry all you need.I'm sorry youve been able to get out, and get to your doctor. Is there anyway you can get seen sometime in the future? You dont have to pretend to be okay here. We are here for you.

hollyann

[xken728]

jj .Onika. Hollyann Thanks for your caring comments ,im not here so much these days ,but it helps me to be able to say how im feeling here ,
Thankyou all ,,goodnight ,,Ken xn728

[crystalgaze]

(((((((((( Ken )))))))))))))))))))))

It's always good to see you! Take care & yup, you're right. It is good to be able to just come out with it--at least every now & then.

We're strong. We're warriors. We fight it off somehow.....

[hollyann]

Hugs Ken. We are here for you.

[xken728]

Yes your right it does just help to be able to lay it down and feel relief ,
I tryed keeping a journal but it didnt seem to help me ,i think its knowing it will be read here ,and sometimes even if you dont get a reply ,you know someone will have looked at it ,
And ive always had great support here and im grateful for that ,
Goodnight My Freinds and thankyou......... Ken