Living In The Moment

[Misty]

I've heard this saying every so often and today for some reason I have been thinking of what it means to me. Like, if this was my last day on earth what would I do? I definitely would not think of being depressed or at least try with all my heart. But it is very hard to not be. The guilt I feel seeing the effect it has on loved ones makes it even worse. Being around people that are angry or depressed can be contagious. Have you noticed that?

The other day was one anxious moment to the next and I blamed myself for being weak. I put my husband through hell because the look on his face was one of helplessness. It took alot for him to be patient with me, but he did. I don't want to keep doing this. He just smiled, hugged me and told me things will be alright. That simple statement "things will be alright" (even though I didn't believe it) made me feel better.

I knew I couldn't put more on him so I came here to the forums to vent. On a new post I saw 'Positive things that happened Today' and I read that instead. Just as bad feelings can pass on, so can good ones. Reading what others had to say put a smile on my face and I posted a reply there instead. It was just different to see those types of posts and I hope it doesn't stop.

Take Care Friends,
Misty

((((((Dande))))))
Thank you so much and maybe this can be a permanent category in the forum.

[TackingIntoTheWind]

You're right, living in the moment is hard. I find it's something that I very much have to work at, sometimes struggle with.
Still, I'm better at it than I was. There is a quote from a Buddhist teacher that I often repeat to myself to try to be more in the moment:
Don't prolong the past, Don't summon the future, don't be deceived by appearances, just dwell in present awareness. It's surprising how much discipline it can sometimes require to be present in the moment. But, I find that practice helps. Even if being calm in the moment sometimes feels like learning a foreign language!
And at this moment I feel OK, just sitting quietly in a quiet library, with the sun shining through the windows, sharing a few thoughts.

[Misty]

TackingIntoTheWind,

Thank you for sharing that quote, it is very wise and true. I started reading a book by the Dhali Llama (sp) and also a book on Zen. Most turn away when they hear that because they think it is a religion, but I was desperate and wanted to explore different ways of being at peace. It is not a religion to me, there are no prayers just a perspective of life and living that makes sense to me. As you mentioned though, it needs to be put into practice and getting your mind tuned a bit. It is truth in a natural, basic form and learning that there is a balance to everything. When I have enough energy I read but it's been a while. You reminded me, so I will put the book on my end table and get my self back in gear.

I don't know what brought you here but if you want I am willing to listen. It is a combination of pain, anxiety and depression that brought me here and in a way I am glad because I have found a great friend and many good souls like you .

*hugs to you*
Misty

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( Misty )))))))))))))))))))))

From the sounds of your husband, 'things will be all right'. The love from him shines through, what a gift he seems to be for you.

Sure he will do all he can to stay strong, and remember, you can't control all things, let him be your strength, enjoy the warmth of his arm in those hugs.

We are here for you, always will be. We will give all the support we possibly can. You are not alone in this fight, we all fight daily, and families and friends may not always understand, they just love.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

Misty..... How are you? ((((((((((((((((Misty))))))))))))))))))))

Thinking of you!

[Misty]

(((((Crystal)))))

You hug is the first today I'm emotionally drained so just taking it easy, or trying to. I check caller ID on the phone and usually let the answering machine pick it up no matter who it is.

I'm going to sit back for a while but I wanted to let you know it's nice to meet kind and caring souls like you. I'm sure we will talk again soon and...

*more hugs* to you

Misty

[Mich]

(((((Misty))))) Your husband sounds wonderful. I am glad you have someone close to you who is so loving and caring.

[crystalgaze]

((((((((((((Misty))))))))))))

Just a hello, a warm hug/glomp to you!

[Misty]

(((((Mich)))))

Thank you Mich. We all take so much for granted in life. It's easy to forget what we have sometimes.

How are you doing and coping lately? I've read some of your posts but to be honest I would have to read them again to remember...my memory is a bit off lately.

You take care, ok
Misty

[Misty]

(((((Crystal)))))

Big hug & glomp back at you

Thank you friend for your thoughts and you are in mine, too.

[xn728]

Just saying hi misty ,,hoping your ok ,,and letting you know im thinking of you ,,keep yourself safe ,,looking forward to hearing from you ,,,hugs
(((((misty))))),,,,,lots of love ken xxx