so alone.

[joeyavenue]

I feel like I'm drowning in my depression. I feel alone cause my husband doesn't beloved in depression and if I unload with my mom she feels horrible. I feel guilty telling her what is going on. The past three days have been extremely bad and I can't get the energy to do anything. I start to try to motivate myself to get off the couch to do house chores and I look around at everything I have to do and get overwhelmed and go back to the couch. I need a life line.

[Auntie]

Hi, I can tell you that you are not alone. I am new to this forum, I joined because I feel the same way. The hardest for me is not having anyone around that understands. It is difficult for me to get motivated to do anything. It is very lonely in this world. I hope things improve for you. That will give me some hope,

[justlost]

I feel the same way. I feel even worse for the people around me who have to deal with me this way. I know they want to help but there's nothing they can do. I tried to tell them how I'm feeling but I can't stand to see the stress it causes them, so I continue to pretend everything is ok and hope that someday I'll believe it too.

I've heard that cleaning is therapeutic, but I'm in the same boat you are. I look around and get overwhelmed by the things needing to be done that I can't even begin.

I wish I had an answer for you. I wish I could do more than tell you that you're not alone.

[Wshn4hope]

I am also a housewife who has been battling depression for a few years now. Each day is so empty - I have no energy, no motivation - just want to cry all the time. I try and force myself at times to appear "normal", but it is getting harder and harder. I can't even fake that anymore. I distance myself from everyone - I have one friend to talk too - (Thank God) and she is in the same boat as me. It is hard for us to help each other progress in any way as we both are so depressed and sad all the time. The one thing we can do is bond. I wish that were enough, but we both continue on the same lonely path.
My big question is - Why? I have no reason to feel this way. Nothing bad has happened - in fact, I should be one of the happiest people around, but something inside me is wrong. Something won't allow me to be happy. All I want is to be "NORMAL." Why is that so hard? What is that so unobtainable? It's never going to happen. How do I continue with all these tears and loneliness. I wake up wanting the day to end. I go to sleep hoping I will sleep into the next afternoon. I dread mornings knowing I have to deal with an entire day. It honestly seems like it is NEVER EVER going to get better. I don't know what to do.
I wish someone just had some magical words........

[heavyheart38]

Im not a housewife, but a assistant manager of a large business. I too battle everyday to get out of bed and face the world. I am currently being weaned off my meds to start another type and the last week has been pure hell. I have cried every morning/night and felt like the whole world has taken a dump on my shoulders. I too cover my pain and dont expose it to anyone because there is noone who cares anough to support.

[Wshn4hope]

I admire you for holding down a job and being able to exist in that world. I used to work - had a great job - and would love to get another. I recently tried something stress free - part time - and I just couldn't make it work. My emotions were all over the place and although I made it thru each day - it was a struggle, but in the end, I just couldn't keep up and I blame myself. I was so hoping that having something to occupy my day would help my situation, but it didn't.
I've been thru the process of changing my meds as you mentioned, but right now, rather than changing again, I just increased my dosage. If only I could fin the right med - could that be the answer?

[joeyavenue]

We all seem to be in the same boat hiding and trying to manage everything on our own. I can't fight on my own any more. This past weekend has been hell for me I decided to stop hiding from my husband. So I decided to unload how I'm feeling and tell him that I seriously need help cause I can't continue on like this. It blew up in my face so big. He told me that I was being selfish and its always about me and I never care about what hes going thru to support us financially. I was so hurt by this notion because I thought I was doing good to be there for him even tho I felt so alone. I made sure I had dinner ready for him when he got home from work I would try to converse with him about his day. When he was having problems at work or with projects around the house I would be there to try and offer up solutions. He just ordered a really expensive truck and I don't think he needs it or that we need that financial burden but I have been by his side the whole time. All I wanted from him was a little compassion for my situation and alittle emotional support, but instead it became a screaming match. He's always said he would be there and until recently he has, but need my best friend back more than ever and he thinks I'm selfish. Does any one know how to talk to or make another person understand what someone who is depressed needs?

[heavyheart38]

I too struggle to find the answer, but all I would like is the support of my beloved. I am the sole breadwinner of the household, so she has no input financially. Admittedly we are in a very good position compared to a lot of other people, but still have the odd disagreement regarding money. But a bit of compassion, affection and support would help.