frustrated and confused

[neogeo]

Its been a couple of months since ive been here. Got a new doctor and therapist, my new meds and talking seemed to be working. My female coworker and i were getting closer. I have been talking to a divorce attorney, my marriage is in the crapper. Now out of the blue my coworker and i call it quits, and now i have started cutting myself its as if my world is ending. I dont want to end up in the mental hospital again. I cant sleep and i dont eat. I know i need help and know i can get better, but at this point i really dont want to. The only thing that keeps me going for now is my son, he is the only reason i try to keep living.

[pablos]

((((((((neogeo))))))))))
You have come to the right place to express you frustration and confusion. Though it feels like your world is ending, there is so much more in your world than you can see at the moment. When I have times like this where I feel nothing has changed, things are getting worst and my world is closing in around me, I try to remind myself, this is only temporary. I need to take it one moment at a time. AND rather than let my world close in around me and feel isolated and alone, I have learned to reach out. I have reached out to Depression Understood and there has always been someone who responds. I have to remind myself there is more to my world than I can see at the moment.
Hang in there, take it one moment at a time, breath, and be grateful for your son who means so much to you.
pablos

[Obayan]

Neo, i know it's hard sweetie, but pablo is right. You came here and are making steps to help yourself which is a great thing. I know it's not much, but give it some time hon.

[findingmyself]

Are you still married and with your co-worker? There is a lot of added stress to not only cheating on a marriage (even a bad one), and especially with a co-worker. If you've been staying for the sake of your child....don't! It doesn't do the child any favors. Your happiness is what will make your child happy. Do what you're doing, get the divorce, then move on. It will reduce your inner turmoil tremendously. Dishonor breeds pain. I don't know your situation, but I hope you can work it out.
Your child needs you healthy.

[Obayan]

Neo, sweetie, i know how hard it is talking to a divorce attorney and watching a marriage dissintigrate. And i'm sorry your co-worker isn't talking with you anymore. It could be they don't want to get involved in a divorce situation even if there wasn't anything more than "just talking and being nice" going on. You know the dangers of SI. You know it can get to be addictive. But please, you don't want to retreat into harmful behavior during a divorce that will include custody challenges. You child needs you hon.