Seeking Help
Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 8:25 am
Hello everyone.
I'm really stuck here. I had been, not getting better, but coping better for the past few years - keeping my head down and getting on with life. But keeping up the act is hard. I need everyone to think i'm fine. Sure they think i'm a bit to quiet, a bit too to myself, but they think i'm fine. I can feel the ground slipping from my feet again, but i know that it's worse this time, i can feel the monster behind my back and it's bigger and a hell of a lot scarier than before. I know i need to get help. But i'm too scared. I can't have people knowing, and i can't do it by myself. But i know that sitting by myself isn't going to make me any better. I've done the reseach, I've had a label for it for years. But now just having a name for it isn't helping anymore. I have nowhere to go.
I'm really stuck here. I had been, not getting better, but coping better for the past few years - keeping my head down and getting on with life. But keeping up the act is hard. I need everyone to think i'm fine. Sure they think i'm a bit to quiet, a bit too to myself, but they think i'm fine. I can feel the ground slipping from my feet again, but i know that it's worse this time, i can feel the monster behind my back and it's bigger and a hell of a lot scarier than before. I know i need to get help. But i'm too scared. I can't have people knowing, and i can't do it by myself. But i know that sitting by myself isn't going to make me any better. I've done the reseach, I've had a label for it for years. But now just having a name for it isn't helping anymore. I have nowhere to go.