How Are You Feeling?
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- crystalgaze
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Whoa, I had some serious anxiety this morning!! I was bidding on something & discovered what looked like a counterfeit item.... My whole morning got ruined....
Bah, humbug....!
(Of course, it got sorted out, although I had to flex my muscles a little bit. Talk about DBZ.... ~shudders~ DBZ was so thoroughly played out on TV that I came to hate it somewhat.... If you don't know what DBZ is, that is a good thing!)
Bah, humbug....!
(Of course, it got sorted out, although I had to flex my muscles a little bit. Talk about DBZ.... ~shudders~ DBZ was so thoroughly played out on TV that I came to hate it somewhat.... If you don't know what DBZ is, that is a good thing!)
- crystalgaze
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Let's see.... I guess I feel a little numb. I miss my former bf already, but it was time for me to go.... I broke my promise to myself that I made about him, so I decided to leave.
My promise was not to cause him or myself (us/our relationship) anymore pain. I failed, so I thought the best thing to do was to be out of there.
In some ways, I also feel relieved because I don't have to deal with the things that were stressors for me with him (& they were serious ones).
Ultimately, I feel I just need more time to grow up & mature. Maybe 10 more years....
My promise was not to cause him or myself (us/our relationship) anymore pain. I failed, so I thought the best thing to do was to be out of there.
In some ways, I also feel relieved because I don't have to deal with the things that were stressors for me with him (& they were serious ones).
Ultimately, I feel I just need more time to grow up & mature. Maybe 10 more years....
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- crystalgaze
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- crystalgaze
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My feelings are all over the place today....
*I'm cranky/grumpy.... (Period trying to come maybe??)
*A tad frustrated (with the relationship with my male friend)
- I want to curl up with him, but he has a cold & I would only just get sick.
- I worry that the language barrier is more serious than I thought it was.
- I do seem to love him today, though, which is better than I've been feeling lately.
*I want to scream, maybe run through the house.
*I'm marvelling that the Internet has stayed online as long as it has. (I am always having to power cycle the router at least 1x, 2x or 3x per day.)
*Sleepy...... but already took a nap today
Arrghhh!!!!
*I'm cranky/grumpy.... (Period trying to come maybe??)
*A tad frustrated (with the relationship with my male friend)
- I want to curl up with him, but he has a cold & I would only just get sick.
- I worry that the language barrier is more serious than I thought it was.
- I do seem to love him today, though, which is better than I've been feeling lately.
*I want to scream, maybe run through the house.
*I'm marvelling that the Internet has stayed online as long as it has. (I am always having to power cycle the router at least 1x, 2x or 3x per day.)
*Sleepy...... but already took a nap today
Arrghhh!!!!
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- crystalgaze
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I'm doing my best not to feel.... unsatisfied and annoyed with people in my life currently.... but today, it is higher than usual.
People in my life are pressuring (as usual) and I'm about ready to scream & have a fit. (I haven't done anything due to someone else, which is good, but just the fact that someone opens his mouth to have something to say is pressure..... I'm just like, "You people.... SHUT UP ALREADY!"
Gah....
People in my life are pressuring (as usual) and I'm about ready to scream & have a fit. (I haven't done anything due to someone else, which is good, but just the fact that someone opens his mouth to have something to say is pressure..... I'm just like, "You people.... SHUT UP ALREADY!"
Gah....
I've had a very nothing day, coming off of a very bad night. Last night everything got to me and I was too tired of everything, everyone, every thing that needed to be done that hasn't gotten done. Just plain overwhelmed and I lost all hope in ever regaining my health, my strength, my spirit...ever finding "me" again.
It's been so long that I was just me, and I miss the old me, so much so that I didn't see how I could bear another day. But I pulled it through, as I always do. Today doesn't seem much brighter and I am too tired to even hope.
It's been so long that I was just me, and I miss the old me, so much so that I didn't see how I could bear another day. But I pulled it through, as I always do. Today doesn't seem much brighter and I am too tired to even hope.
- crystalgaze
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Hello there Angel 5! Welcome to the forum! I hope you feel better soon! Also, I would encourage you to continue to have faith... !!
I don't know how long it's been for you, but it has taken about 13 long years to regain parts of myself, from when I first started to notice losing pieces of my personality.... It's a sort of cycle, though... Victories become losses/struggles & struggles/losses become victories all over again...
In all honesty, I can't say that I've won yet, but maybe, just maybe it will happen soon or at some point.
As for how I feel, I am a little better. I was sick... again.... for a while.... I swear this looks like it is becoming my new norm!! (What the heck!!)
I don't know how long it's been for you, but it has taken about 13 long years to regain parts of myself, from when I first started to notice losing pieces of my personality.... It's a sort of cycle, though... Victories become losses/struggles & struggles/losses become victories all over again...
In all honesty, I can't say that I've won yet, but maybe, just maybe it will happen soon or at some point.
As for how I feel, I am a little better. I was sick... again.... for a while.... I swear this looks like it is becoming my new norm!! (What the heck!!)
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