anyway, has anybody else seen this new miniseries called prison? been watching it and I can see myself so much in it, I always feel like the world around me is what they want me to see and be a part of, but its not my real life, my life is the one I catch glimpse of during my daydreams, it really is a wonderfully place, it looks like this place, but in it i am always this person.... well not me I guess. anyway i just noticed the connection.
on a side note, how can people hurt me so and not even know it, or do they? in short I have a issue where i can't trust if a person is doing something for me because they want to or they feel they have to. that said I go into an anxiety attack when my wife wants me to call my brother to see if we are doing breakfast on Saturday, I have told her this and she said she understood, well last Friday she was talking to my sister and told her she did not know if I we were doing breakfast this Saturday because I wouldn't call my brother to find out..... it was like she stabbed me in the chest, it hurt, i couldn't even speak, and on my birthday weekend
I still feel the after affects of that one.
Dave