Despair

[Mich]

My morning is filled with despair. This depression is crushing the life out of me. I don't get any emotional support from my husband. I get support with making dinner and doing chores if I don't feel up to it but I don't get any hugs with him encouraging me to "hang on". The feelings of hopelessness, darkness and sadness are so overwhelming and it is hard to go through this alone.

[crystalgaze]

Morning Mich. Hang in there! Today is pretty tough for me as well. We will make it.

I am wondering about something: If he doesn't hug you, can you hug him? Or he won't want to hug you at all?

Take care, ~Crystal

I hope my question is not inappropriate. I mean no harm.... It's just something I put here as a thought.

[Dave]

Hi Mich. I know how hard it can be without having anyone for support, a husband should support his wife through all times, good or bad. Your husband may not give you a hug in your time of need but I will. (((((((Mich))))))) Hang in there, you can make it through this hard time in your life, just hang on and rest assured that this time of anguish will pass.

Take Care!
Dave

[BrokenPen]

Which is also another good reason for places like this to exist, Mich.

It allows us all to connect with each other even when the rest of the world looks down on us and thinks of us as weak.

[xn728]

mich ,i know the pain and turmoil of depprestion ,you must not let it crush you ,if you breack it wins ,you must sometimes feel the full weight of it on your shoulders dont fight it but learn to live with it
dont think it will suddenly go away ,or you will just set your self up for a let down ,does your husband know how you feel ,can you tell him .he may be frightened of your illness,try and talk ,i know this cant work in some cases ,im 51 and have suffered since being seven ,ive cryed and wanted to die ,i layed in the rain and screamed with my face pushed into the wet earth so no,one would here me ,but amoung all this turmiol ive raised a family ,and now i look after my wife who has lung problems .but i dont write this for sympathy,i just want you to know your not alone ,thoasands of vioces all over the wourld scream in pain all the time
but only those who scream can ever understand .so reach out your hand into the darkness and in your mind someone will hold it and cry with you
and you wont be alone ,as the utter,hoplessness surrounds you and the dark one looks on you must be strong reach deep inside yourself ,we all have the means to go on ,you have new friends on here and we know how you feel .reach out and we will catch your fall xn728

[Mich]

Thank you so much everyone. It feels so good to make a connection with people who truly understand. I am so glad I found this site.

[BrokenPen]

Thank you so much everyone. It feels so good to make a connection with people who truly understand. I am so glad I found this site.

It certainly is a lot better than what can be found in a lot of other places such as family and friends who don't quite get what it is to be in this kind of spot emotionally and mentally.

[xn728]

r uss was a big part of my life up till the age 18 we rode motorcycles together ,illegal most of the time ,big triumphs ,bsa,s etc we would ride dirt bikes ,we lived and breathed these great machines .smashed us up more than once .but that was part of the thrill ,we came through childhood together always together we thought alike and acted alike we couldent be parted ,one night russ had been out drinking and when he returned home rather late .his father opened the door and said if he came in late again the door would remain locked ,russ was,nt one for confrountation so he just sat in the living room and watched tv ,his father had gone to bed /russ felt angry but he couldent understand this upsetting emotion ,he didnt know how to speak to his father ,so he thought he would do something to teach him a lesson ,wicth would make him leave him alone .so russ for some reason thought that if he set fire to the papers in the rack under the tv this would leave a mess in the morning and his father would see this and would be wary about telling russ off again .so russ lit the papers edge and went off upstairs to bed .russ drifted quickly into an angry and confused sleep ,the terrible shudder and the sound of the tv exploding and blowing the living room window into the back yard was the end of the road for russ he ran down stairs and opened the living room door it was like opening the gates of hell the fire licked along the ceiling very fast his mother shouted his name as she stood and looked in she knew he was responsable ,he stood in horror as the flames got larger the cieling was coming in now and everyone was in the street russ looked on in horror he knew what he had done even though it wasnt meant to be like this /it was all to much for this young puzzeld mind he would have to go now ,if he stayed he would be hounded forever,his future children he must leave this place his mam and dad his freinds his bikes his life /he had desroyed everything his parents had and now he would destroy himself , so the young russ took his middle name and became ken , and ken stood and watched russ as he slowly walked into the flames his dreams his hopes his innocense gone forever .ken moved away from this place and didnt make new friends but still has russ tattooed on his wrist ,i have never let this out before and dont no why im doing it now i must go now the keyboard is blured by tears please forgive me for this terrible thing i have done xn728

[xn728]

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