Will it ever end

[stevenirishlad]

What a crap day of feeling stressed anxious, socially paranoid nd depressed, where oes it ever end?Ive been like this for about 4 years now, every morning is a struggle, I even rang in sick this morning with my excuse "being tired", thats how little I care about life I couldn't be arsed making an excuse. Does any 1 here feel like they have a rope wrapped around their mind due to depression?
What on Gods name am I going to do?If Im not weak and unable to move I feel sick, If I dont feel sick I feel boiled up and angry, has any1 ever broke free from depression?

Hope ye are all seeing brighter days than me

Stephen

[Monty]

Stephen,

Sorry that you are feeling so poorly today.

Also find it frustrating for gray day seems like the previous.
It gets like I are in some dark fog, that no one else is experiencing in my life, and I just can't shake it.

I am a rapid-cycler with my depression, so it can come and go very quickly. Though it never goes away quick enough.

The anger is also a tough one for me. I was taught all my life to not show anger, and now trying to let some of the pressure out for the first time in my 50's I am finding very difficult. I kept it in enough that I have had ulcers in the past and a multitude of other health problems, the anger eats away at my insides when I try to surpress it. I now have a few people in my life that I feel safe with, and don't mind me showing my frustration every so often. They don't run away, or at least haven't done so yet.

You last question was whether anyone has every broken free from depression.

I can only answer on my own, personal level. I will always, and forever, when I am feeling better worry that the depression is just waiting around the corner for me, to yet again envelope me.

I can also say, that today is a good day for me, and I thought that would never happen. So there is hope.