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Today was bad. It's probably been one of the worst days in a while.
School was awful and stressful. I was scheduled to work today even though my manager knows full well I am not available on wednesdays. Now let me warn you that for some reason I took this as some fatal blow and broke down. I was so irrational that I argued with my boyfriend, my mother, my best friend, and said a lot of things that I regret. All because of a stupid work schedule. For some reason, my body went all psychosomatic and I got a migraine headache an hour before work which made my anger ten times worse. I couldn't handle anything today and it potentially put a lot of my relationships in the line of fire. Every day gets worse it seems. I wake up dreading the opening of my eyes to reality. I want to be positive. I do really badly...I'm trying as hard as I can.
"After all, tomorrow is another day"

Hi Cas... I'm so sorry that it's taken me this long to see your post. I was away on vacation during this time. I really am sorry.

During those types of days, we just have to tough through them, I guess. There are those days when everything goes wrong, and, due to your frustration, your irritability goes up, and you end up snapping away at everyone. I get it, Cas. I've definitely been there.

At my job, in the cubicle next to mine, there is a man who is over 70 years old and refuses to retire for God only knows what reason. He comes to work, and listens to a French radio station very very loudly. Some days, I can brush it off. Other days... I want to throw that darn radio out the window never to see it again!

The point is... forgive yourself, ok? All of the people you snapped at love you and will forgive you as well. I hope the next day was brighter for you, Cas. Please do let me know.

Keep posting, Cas...

I laughed out loud about your coworker. It made me feel much better. I am just hoping that everyone in my life knows how grateful I am towards them, because it's very hard to convey my love and appreciation lately.
It sucks that we often end up hurting the ones we love the most.

Hey Cas- Glad I made you smile!! There is so much humor in reality sometimes, huh?

Yes, it does suck that we tend to hurt the ones we love the most, but it's because they love us back that they can forgive us, ok? Forgiving yourself? Much more difficult.

How are your relationships going with those people? Well, I hope?