Day? It's gonna be a bad week....

[Friday13]

My boyf went to stay away at hs brothers on sunday, its now wednesday and hes not coming back til friday or saturday!
I have no friends (only friends online) & my dads a waste of space (i dont live wit him) & Mum is a psycho.
I think my Mum may have OCD, I have to stay in this house all week while she is constantly tidying up and i hate it cause things have dust etc bt its tidy wats the point?
When i tell her she tells me to clean it, but we have nothing to clean it with.
She moans at me to tidy my room, its a tiny box room wit to room for any of my stuff to live in, its clean and stuffs piled up and in boxes etc cause theres no room, she wants it to be minimal, so where do i put my stuff?
My meds have stopped working , why do they stop when my bf isnt here to take care of me?

I used to have problems with eating for years & lately i realised i looked good at my size, i was only a couple of pounds over weight but ate what i want, I used to be what i thought was half a stone overw8 nd being overw8 brought me down, but iv been okay for a while now....But i went doctors yesterday just for a check up and im like a stne overw8, I havent gained, I just had it wrong and now im devastated. I haven't eaten since i got back from the doctors at half 5ish yesterday.
I am really gutted, part of me says "dont eat" but then i think of my hair getting thinner and getting horrible nails and teeth etc, im so stuck in the middle and i hate feeling bk at square one, i thought i was past all of this.

Im stuck in my house with my mum all week bcause i have no where else to go. I hate living her i wish i could get my own place.
Im hungryy.

[Emotional_77]

First thing.. Your meds stop working when your bf is not around? I dont know if you are going to like what im going to say but from experience this is not a good thing cause it is telling you that you need him in order to be stable. You should be still stable whether or not your boyfriend is there or not, of course when he is gone you will miss him but you should not be all depressed and not ok without him, this shows a sign that you are too dependent on him. Try to gain a little independence and do other things to make you feel better than having your boyfriend with you. I used to be in your shoes where I did not have any friends and I had a boyfriend and it was just us too and i thought that's all i ever would need. When he would be gone i would be all depressed and when hes around i would feel good but one day he left for good and i got stuck on my own without anything because i was so dependent on him, i had to learn to find ways to make me feel good even if i had no one around me to make me feel good. Anyway... I probably went way off topic with that one statement you mentioned and i'm sorry if it offends you let me know and i will delete this post.

Secondly, eat something!!!! You won't be healthy if you don't eat. Just be careful on your portions and make sure you at least some healthy food and you will do fine. Doing this will make you feel good and yes you will have splurges and make mistakes and just gobble down a whole bag of chips or something but don't let it get to you to much, it happens. Just start fresh the next day.

You remind me alot like myself.