Hard Situations
Posted: Tue Oct 22, 2019 1:37 pm
It's difficult to figure out how to start this. And I know that a lot of this may make me sound ungrateful but I can't help but wonder if these situations are hurting me.
First of all, I want to preface all of this by saying that I have, at least I think I have, Asperger's Syndrome (or Autism Spectrum) and that does affect me in my job. I can't say what my job is but it does involve me dealing with customers a lot. And in dealing with them does grate of my mental health. Not to mention having demanding teammates. This is the part where I know I may sound ungrateful because a few years ago, I was struggling with depression due to the fact that I was poor and couldn't find work. So, I went and learned a trade and managed to become employed and that helped out a lot. But over time the gratefulness of being employed started to wear off and now I know I can't quit because I have debts and an apartment, plus I also have a girlfriend who goes through a lot herself. (some of you may know of my posts that I made about her). And I do try to help her through her rough times with depression and all that but I wonder if I'm failing her with how worn down I get when it comes to my own job.
A lot of it does stress me out, wear me down and I think also affects my mental health. But again, I know that I can't quit and I think I'm a little too old for a career change. Which is why it'd be nice if I could win a few bucks to sustain me while I do something different. Especially given my skills are more towards the field of creative writing.
First of all, I want to preface all of this by saying that I have, at least I think I have, Asperger's Syndrome (or Autism Spectrum) and that does affect me in my job. I can't say what my job is but it does involve me dealing with customers a lot. And in dealing with them does grate of my mental health. Not to mention having demanding teammates. This is the part where I know I may sound ungrateful because a few years ago, I was struggling with depression due to the fact that I was poor and couldn't find work. So, I went and learned a trade and managed to become employed and that helped out a lot. But over time the gratefulness of being employed started to wear off and now I know I can't quit because I have debts and an apartment, plus I also have a girlfriend who goes through a lot herself. (some of you may know of my posts that I made about her). And I do try to help her through her rough times with depression and all that but I wonder if I'm failing her with how worn down I get when it comes to my own job.
A lot of it does stress me out, wear me down and I think also affects my mental health. But again, I know that I can't quit and I think I'm a little too old for a career change. Which is why it'd be nice if I could win a few bucks to sustain me while I do something different. Especially given my skills are more towards the field of creative writing.