happy but depressed
Posted: Tue Jun 04, 2019 2:38 pm
had depression+other mental illness most of my 30-year long life.
Just wanted to see if this is something that other people have experienced as well.
I go in and out depressions episodes throughout my life. sometimes long, sometimes short i dont know.
At this very moment, I can say I am out. I don't really feel depressed, my life is great. nothing really to worry about and living a resume-perfect life. But its not like I was living a horrible life when I am experiencing a depressive episode. nothing is different.
I am living an amazingly great life as a depressed person.
The crazy thing is that even though i am happy right at this moment, my brain won't shut up and keep telling me I would be just better off dead. It is just so much better being dead. just go kill myself before another episode hits me. It is so messed up.
I guess depression is an illness not an excuse. that is why my brain won't let me just be happy.
do any of you go through similar things?
Just wanted to see if this is something that other people have experienced as well.
I go in and out depressions episodes throughout my life. sometimes long, sometimes short i dont know.
At this very moment, I can say I am out. I don't really feel depressed, my life is great. nothing really to worry about and living a resume-perfect life. But its not like I was living a horrible life when I am experiencing a depressive episode. nothing is different.
I am living an amazingly great life as a depressed person.
The crazy thing is that even though i am happy right at this moment, my brain won't shut up and keep telling me I would be just better off dead. It is just so much better being dead. just go kill myself before another episode hits me. It is so messed up.
I guess depression is an illness not an excuse. that is why my brain won't let me just be happy.
do any of you go through similar things?