Dear lost-soul, thank you for sharing your concerns with us. I’m truly sorry that you are dealing with such difficult situation. I encourage you to hang in there! Do not give up! Even in the darkest moments in our lives there’s always hope. Life is so precious! And that God that you are talking about is the only owner of your life and has given you another chance. Have you ever thought of seeking Christian Counseling? Counseling works through things like this. You are valuable and worthy of fighting for. Would you be interested of social outlets like those which share hobbies, recreational interests, or volunteer with charitable organizations? This may help you to get out the house and to occupy yourself. This list-ly is extremely important for you are going through:
https://list.ly/list/1CE4-looking-up-fr ... n-darkness. Please let me tell you my friend that you are not alone in this battle. If you need to talk with someone I’ll leave you this Hotline #s: 1-800-SUICIDE or 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). Sending you hugs. I will keep you in my prayers, my friend -keep us posted, OK?