Depression/self doubt
Posted: Wed Mar 16, 2016 3:25 am
I've been skateboarding since I was 11 years old (18 now) and a few years ago I decided this is what I want to do with my life. Right now I am living with my dad (parents are divorced) and he believes that I can become a professional skateboarder. last year he said he wanted to support me 100% and pay for me so I don't have to get a job, so I can skate every day and progress. I am very thankful that he is doing this for me, but about a few months ago, I feel like I have been getting worse at skateboarding and all of my friends have been progressing. And I know that skateboarding is 80% mental and 20% physical. But the past few months I have been getting really really bummed and depressed because I know that if I don't become a professional skateboarder I won't only let myself down, I feel like I will let my dad down; because he is supporting me all the way. He even said he will pay for me to live in LA!!! (Best place for skateboarding) I have literally cried at times because this is what I really want to do in my life and if I fail I will waste a lot of my life. I honestly don't know what to do.... And I'm sorry for explaining this badly.