I'm here because I don't know what to do

[remiles]

I was diagnosed with depression last early November. However, I'm positive it started earlier than that, but I was just too stubborn to seek help before then.
I've gone through some counselling and even started medication (in late April) to help it. The meds worked well at first but within the last month, I feel the same as when it all first started to hit me.
Why isn't my medication working anymore? Do I need to up my dosage? Is there something else wrong with me?
Is the stress that I'm feeling currently inhibiting my life all over again?
I've had a mental break down four times in the past week, and it's starting to get difficult to do anything all over again. Self-harm, and even suicide, has crossed my mind more than it ever has.
I believe suicide happens when you believe that the suffering you feel is worse than what everyone else will feel when you're gone. It's hard because I am a college student and am supposed to be going back to school at the end of this month, but I don't know how capable I will be at succeeding.

Also, before I ever sought help, my roommate surprised me with a rabbit because she knew that I have never gone without an animal in my home before that year, and knew how comforting animals are to me, and to take care of something. That was kind of her bribe to get me to get help. Do any of you have experience with support animals? How can I get a dog or cat or rabbit legally certified for something like that, because having a pet has made it difficult to find somewhere to live.

Thanks. I would love some discussion.

[suncatcher]

Obviously your room mate loves you. Let that be a beginning to your healing.
A lot of people feel unloved, this leads to that feeling that we won't be missed.
Just remember being loved is a good reason to keep going.
I will be back after 10pm central time tonight, if you want to talk. I have been there....
Positive thoughts your way .

[RelishingWaterfall]

It takes a lot of guts to say out loud that you would love some discussion. I never had that courage so good job on that. If you ever want to talk, pm me. I am going through what you are but I have learnt one thing in this process.. talking about the situation doesnt always makes it better but it has never made any situation worse. Things always get better..

[NickStokes]

Pets can be a great assistance. Whatever the case, you need to turn towards positive things in life. Animals can be one of them