Its driving me insane

[Chan23]

Hi there, 

I seem to be having some relationship problems due to my depressio, paranoia and anxiety issues and need some support. Next month I will be going to Glasgow to meet a girl. I have booked my tickets and me and her are both going to stay in a hotel together. However I'm having very bad paranoia about this and very high anxiety issues. I want to be able to tell my mum but feel really scared and anxious about the outcome. I need to tell her as she reads all my bank statements. But I have no idea in how to tell her.  I have told this girl that I suffer with bad paranoia but I'm scared im going to loose her because of it. I have told her a straight up that are you definitely goingto come meet me.  I have told her I've been messed around in the past. She said no she will come and meet me. She saidshe uunderstands about my paranoia. Im just really scared that if it doesn't work out my mom will hold it against me. Saying that I've wasted my money and keep reminding me of my past relationships. I feel like this is driving me insane and I don't know what to do. Ive known this girl for a month and I feel like I am falling for her (I know it's very soon). Also it was just may last year I came out to my mum about my sexuality after keeping it hidden for some years.

[Glad2bme]

If you're on that side of the pond and it's a short flight and you aren't spending your life savings, maybe just start with telling Mum you're taking a trip next month. Leave out the part about the girl.

Look up things to do there and plan on doing them whether the girl shows or not. Then you at least have a nice trip planned. Maybe get your head in a different place. Go there to BE there, not just BE there with someone else.

THEN you have more personal power, because after a month neither of you can promise it will be forever and that sounds like what your heart is demanding it be right now.

Maybe that's how "success" is defined in romance somehow, but truly every relationship that doesn't give us a life threatening disease is a blessing. Some of those too... but you probably know how to take care of yourself in that area.

If you are looking at spending thousands you can't afford, maybe you should see about reassessing this yourself. Can you move the trip out until it falls during a holiday? Maybe back things up a notch. Do you guys skype? How much do you really know each other? Maybe dial it back just to be sure.

OR commit to it and decide that however it turns out, at least you are having an adventure.

[NickStokes]

As hard as it seems, try to relax. In the end, when it comes to relationships, you have nothing to lose