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Hiya,

I haven't been on these forums for a while now, as my anxiety and depression got much better, but now it's all coming back again and I need help. I lost my job a few months ago, and my boyfriend a little while before that, and it's all just been piling up. I've had countless interviews, and even when I think they've gone really well, I still never seem to get one. I'm stlll good friends with my ex but in ways it just makes it harder. I've got into the routine of staying in bed everyday, and I've put on a stone since June. I feel so small and useless, and my friends are great, but I am too scared to talk to people about it because I'm scared they'll think I'm attention seeking. My health anxieties are getting worse again and my sleeping pattern is all over the place. I'm tired of my chest hurting and my head aching, and crying at the stupidest things.

I know it will (hopefully) get better eventually. But right now I'm in a dark place and I'd love any advice or words of encouragement. You guys always helped me so much before.

Sorry for ranting..
lots of love x

you are not small and useless ,you are unique and there is no one like you in this world, that is an amazing thing by it self.
lots of people are finding it hard to find work, so do not feel it is just you, or that you are not good enough, because you are.
are you near a green space that you can go for a walk and clear your head ?
nature has a way of healing us and bringing a sense of calm in to our lives .
keeping to a routine is also a good thing, although difficult but not impossible.
be brave and take care.

It sounds, Sigur, like you know some of what you need to do. The tension pain, your diet, sleep schedule; you've touched on most of the things that need to be addressed, so I'm sure your addressing them in the best ways you know how.

Some things I think are important to consider are: Job hunting is a huge job in itself, so try not to get down on yourself if other things aren't getting done. It's important to treat yourself gently and commit to spend some time everyday doing nothing. You may say to yourself your already doing plenty of nothing (I often do), but too often you think your trying to do something and getting nothing done. I can get myself into states of static panic that last half the day. I'm talking about creating a discipline of carving out a piece of the day where your job is to sit. It's called meditation, and it's generally not fun if your doing it right. It's work. But it can also make the rest of the day more effective.

I also think depression tends to show us fewer options. Meditation can help open our minds to new options. In any case, I think it's important that we give ourselves credit for making the best decisions we can, given the options we see before us.

Thanks guys,

You're right, I do know how to change things to make it better. It's just my motivation is gone - I'm finding it hard to find reasons for doing anything. I'm naturally a social creature so it's making me really sad to be like this. I'm pretty much my own worst enemy haha.

I do try to go on walks now and again but at the moment even doing that is hard because I feel so bad about my self image. I really hate people seeing me. I used to go running every other day in the park but now I'm too scared people will laugh at me.

I also have tried meditation a few times, and it does help. I will definitely try doing it more often