Depression Understood Forums

although I have never been formally diagnosed with depression, I'm almost 100% positive that I have been living with it for the past year and a half. I feel useless, unmotivated, uninterested, apathetic, etc. I have no desires and no goals and don't really care to do anything other than lay in bed all day and sleep or do nothing. And on top of that I just had a huge falling out with my parents due to my behavior, but what is frustrating is that they complain about my actions and my attitude but never give me the tools that I need in order to solve these issues, they just tell me what's wrong and order me to fix them, I think because I'm 19 they think that I'm able to fix whatever is going wrong by myself, when I'm struggling from day to day just to get out of bed and talk to anybody. I'm really confused and need some help, any suggestions on what to do? I fear that when I move in three weeks, back to my apartment for school, that I'll end up having to drop out and will f*** up my full scholarship and all of my relationships with my friends and my boyfriend, I'm running out of excuses and options..

Hi I live in texas too.
When you go back to school or before you may want to see a dr and get assessed. Meds could help and so forth. Often you can get generic for a low price at walmart. It does sound like you are depressed. You have a scholarship so that means you have done a lot right. Emily did something happen a year and a half ago that you need to talk about with someone you trust? A loss or something like that or a trauma or something complicated happening can trigger a downward slide esp. if one has not talked it out. Just wondering.

Maybe you feel pressure to perform and you dont want to. Just a thought. You don't sound very excited about the upcoming school year. I can understand that as going from high school to college is a big transition.
And it can be scarey. I was scared when I went years ago. It was all new and so forth and I didn't have a clue about what I was interested in. etc.
Anyway I hope you can find my post and if you feel like it respond. I would like to help if I can in some way. Take care. Mel