Don't know where to turn
Posted: Wed May 23, 2012 1:01 pm
It's almost been a year now since i've had an abortion, I don't like to tell people because i'l be judged but it hurts me inside.. I know myself it was the right thing to do as I am 18 and I'm not ready for the commitment of being a mum but I feel so guilty and upset that I could go through with it. I am getting councilling for it although I didnt feel I needed it when I had it.
Sometimes I don't feel listened too and this gets me angry, I never mean to hurt people cos I'm such a loving person but I do because i'm afraid their not listening to how I feel, especially boyfriends. I've been in and out of relationships since I was 15 and I think that's really effected me, I crave love and affection!! My mum dad and step dad have always given me what I wanted and love me soo much.. an my brothers too but sometimes I dont feel that love so I look for it in boys. When I was younger I used to take rude pictures and send them to girls and boys not knowing it would have an affect on me and they send me pictures and speak dirty to me to. It makes me upset speaking about this but I just want people to know I am a nice person and I might be weird but in a good way
Thank you for reading this
Sometimes I don't feel listened too and this gets me angry, I never mean to hurt people cos I'm such a loving person but I do because i'm afraid their not listening to how I feel, especially boyfriends. I've been in and out of relationships since I was 15 and I think that's really effected me, I crave love and affection!! My mum dad and step dad have always given me what I wanted and love me soo much.. an my brothers too but sometimes I dont feel that love so I look for it in boys. When I was younger I used to take rude pictures and send them to girls and boys not knowing it would have an affect on me and they send me pictures and speak dirty to me to. It makes me upset speaking about this but I just want people to know I am a nice person and I might be weird but in a good way

Thank you for reading this