Been diagnosed with depression but now nothing seems real?
Posted: Fri May 11, 2012 8:50 pm
Hey, this is my first post on here. I've been depressed for the past four years, i've been on a variety of drugs but have been on Mirtazapine since last october (8 months) and built up to 45mg which i've now been taking nightly for the past 6 months.
It seems to be working with depressive symptoms, no suicidal thoughts for a good 3/4 months. But recently (for about a month) everything seems really distanced and occasionally i hear people talking and i can't work out whether it's people around me (in public) and i get myself worried about people hearing what i'm thinking but i'm very aware that they can't. I've been very anxious and have been feeling extremely panicky, i thought i was going to have a panic attack and even went far enough to exaggerate it to my housemates so i would feel more safe when they looked after me. Over the past couple of days everything has got way too much and i feel lethargic and i can't see into the future any more than vaguely planning tomorrow. I have exams coming up but i'm not stressing out about them but i'm scared that if i go to the doctors they'll say something like i shouldn't take them and i can't not take these although they're not the source of the anxiety. I'm very confused about all of this. Does anyone know what i'm talking about, i'm very scared. Really, really scared. Can anyone give me some advice?
It seems to be working with depressive symptoms, no suicidal thoughts for a good 3/4 months. But recently (for about a month) everything seems really distanced and occasionally i hear people talking and i can't work out whether it's people around me (in public) and i get myself worried about people hearing what i'm thinking but i'm very aware that they can't. I've been very anxious and have been feeling extremely panicky, i thought i was going to have a panic attack and even went far enough to exaggerate it to my housemates so i would feel more safe when they looked after me. Over the past couple of days everything has got way too much and i feel lethargic and i can't see into the future any more than vaguely planning tomorrow. I have exams coming up but i'm not stressing out about them but i'm scared that if i go to the doctors they'll say something like i shouldn't take them and i can't not take these although they're not the source of the anxiety. I'm very confused about all of this. Does anyone know what i'm talking about, i'm very scared. Really, really scared. Can anyone give me some advice?