The Evil

[COACH]

Its like a cloud that comes down. Its a blanket that smothers me til I cant see. There is no direction, Pretty soon my senses are dull, my feelings are numb, and I realize I am trapped.

[Stephen]

Amen... feeling that and living that this very second Coach.

Oh, now I feel like I'm attention seeking. But I'm not. Just the pure mist of depression dragging me deeper and deeper into its hell.

I want to die right now. But I know the feeling will pass -- I hope.

Stephen

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((((((Coach)))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((((Stephen))))))))))))))))

My heart goes out to each of you. Won't say my feelings, they don't/won't help the situation.

Warmie

[ButterflyKisses]

It is at the darkest times, that we need each other most. Life seems to pass us by, as we are in the deepest pit of dispair.

"It's is darkest before the dawn". I repeat that to myself sometimes. Gives me a glimmer of hope. You have to experience the dark, to appreciate the light.

Stay well my friends

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Believe we are all looking for that key to unlock the chains of depression. The weight is heavy to carry. Someway, I deal with it, live with it, don't know what else to do.

Warmie

[JTSilius]

i like evil, anger, hatred. gets me through the day (literally)

[Shelly68]

I don't know about you all, but my depression seems to worsen once we turn the clocks back for "fall back" savings time.

I literally count the days until December 21, because I know that day is the winter solstice, thus the shortest day (daylight-wise) of the year. So I keep telling myself that after that day passes by, the days will, little by little, get longer.

I'm a spring & summer gal. I bloom during these times...and I wish that we humans were allowed to hibernate in the dreary months of winter.
Can you imagine how bad I would be if I lived up north? LOL I live in Myrtle Beach, SC -- I shouldn't complain...but well...you know...

Anyway, I hope y'all start feeling lifted up soon.

[Stephen]

Shelly -- I'm exactly the same. I have SAD (seasonal affective disorder), and basically all I want to do is hibernate every winter too.

I was wondering, have you ever tried an SAD lamp? If you've not heard of them, they're worth "Googling"... and perhaps asking your doctor about.

Stephen