cant cope

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This is really hard for me but i am hoping that by talking to other people who feel the same may give me hope that i am not alone in how i feel.

I feel like im not even here half the time that this isn't me, these feelings aren't mine. i feel totally disconnected from the rest of the world. I dont know if any one else feels like that?

I put on this front so that noone will guess how i am feeling but i think it has just come to a point where i cant do it any more, i cant keep up. My feelings have been bulding up for years and i just cant take it any more.

I am at uni and i can't cope, my work is suffering i just dont wanna be here anymore. its too hard to to ANYTHING.

And i get so mad at myself, my concentration is PATHETIC and my memory is awful. I am not even joking about 7 or 8 times today i was talking to my mum and in mid sentence i just completely blanked and could not remember what i was talking about. it is driving me mad. i can hardly remember a thing and i cant concentrate on anything not even conversations. Does anyone else get this? im finding it really hard to cope. I dont know what to do.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Hi new,

First, welcome to our site. The forum and also a chat room that you might find helpful.

With depression we learn to wear many mask. You aren't alone with that. You do exactly what we all do, joke about things, try to hide as much as you can, memory seems to come and go and concentration gets difficult at times.

Have you consider seeing a doctor or talk with a counselor at the university? Just a thought. Who ever it might be you see, they have dealt with people feeling this way before and could possibly give you some professional advice. Just a suggestion.

Hope to see you sharing more with us. Great people about with the site.

Warmsoul

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Thanks for your reply.

I have been referred to see a psychiatrist so im waiting on that appointment to come through. I have decided to withdraw from uni and start again next year so i can fully concentrate on getting better.

I am worried about telling people as they might not understand or think im just being pathetic but i know that this is something i have to do.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

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YW. Glad you found us.

Good on the appointment. Up to you as far as withdrawing but perhaps see what the doctor says first? Sometimes they will start you on a medication that may help. Just a thought, this is your decision.

As for telling others, that again will be your decision when the time comes. Just know you aren't alone with this, so don't be so hard on yourself. In the past I was surprised to realize the people I know in real life that do deal with the depression and anxiety. Was relieved to know I had others that understood.

Keep us posted, please.

Warmie