Bad days

[Monty]

Agree totally with Amy (seem to do a lot of that).

I am on disability so my income will never change, only get less. My disability payment is Canada is higher than what I will get when I actually hit the retirement age. Have the choice here for early retirement, at 62 rather than 65, which is no advantage for me.

I have virtually no savings and am in the position that I need to live my elderly mother. She is unable to live on her own, and unwilling to move out. I am the sibling that has the most flexibility so I am the one. Must admit that over time I am finding it difficult to cope with an ageing parent. I look at in the way, that at least I have a roof over my head.

There is a terrible housing shortage in the city where I live. Actually I went to a "candlelight vigil" last night for the homeless. I know that I am fortunate enough that I "don't think" that I will ever be in that situation. I have a good relationship with a few members of my family so I am pretty sure I won't have to resort to couch-surfing like people I know do. It is scary to look into the eyes of a homeless person. With the wind chill last night, it was -40C, the equivalent of -40F. Still I know that if it gets to that point that I will not be independent, again I will dependent on someone for one of the basic human rights in life. Think that is why the financial thing is a huge trigger for me also.

One last thing. Amy, your anacronym (sp?) of GAD made me think about the one for bipolar affective disorder is BAD
major affective disorder is MAD

Maybe the psychiatrist naming the disorders had a Freudian slip?


Look forward to the next postings on this thread.

[aim]

Freud must have had a good sense of humor huh, Monty??? I could get lost in acronyms between my illness and my job!

I think everyone is struggling financially right now - I can't really remember a time when I wasn't! I hope things improve soon so we can all breathe easier...

I also think finances are a HUGE trigger for many people. I've been sick to my stomach myself worrying about paying for things...I just keep trying to stay positive, and know, in my heart, that things will improve - for ALL of us.

[Katietron]

Hey, miss you, Hope you´ll feel somwhat better soon.

Went through something similar a while ago and honestly I don´t think its such a bad idea to isolate yourself from chat for a couple of days, though I do miss seeing your name there:) We all need vacation, even from things we like.

How abot those long walks now? You have very energetic companion and its only good to be really tired, it´ll help those thoughts to stop racing through your head and find some kind of a balance again.

Be safe.

[aim]

hey katie! Yes, my long walks do work quite often, and energetic is not even the word for Dakota! If I could think of a word that means super duper uber energetic that would be it!

I haven't gone to the chat because last time I was there, I felt that I wasn't really helping anyone, and that some people did not really want me there. Maybe it's me being overly sensitive, I don't know.

Thanks for the support!