What if...

[britbabe]

So, today was the staff bbq for the agency I work with. I originally was really looking forward to it. I even requested today off so I could go.

However... once I started to get ready the "what if's" started to cloud my mind. What if I don't know anyone there? What if I'm over dressed? What if I'm under dressed? What if I see someone I don't like there?

... and so they continued until I crawled back in bed and told myself that this was a bad idea. Now I feel like I failed or something. I know that this was never a test, but this shows that my symptoms are not only coming back but are stopping me from doing things that I want to do. I am sure that I could have gotten up and went anyway, but I also know that by the time I would have gotten there I would have been so anxious that I would be too upset to have a good time, let alone relax.

I am just wondering how you deal with this? Is there some way to make the mind calm down when you don't really know what you are walking into, no matter how non-threatening it may be?


Britbabe