Incapable of being happy

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Hi bellz

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[mtywilli]

Bellz I do the same thing self sabotage by expecting it to go wrong and then it does As far as being happy I am always looking for the end or the mistake that made me happy. I love watching stand up comics to find my laugh threshold sometime I hear afunny joke and no reaction from me those are bad days when my funny does not work

[rebecca42]

I'm new to the forums so forgive me if I'm lengthy in my story. I can relate to what your feeling. I want to be happy but seems like there is always something bringing it down. I have so many things going through my mind trying to work through it but don't. I feel like I'm in a shell all by myself. I feel no one will understand me because I dont understand it myself. If this makes any sense to anybody please reply.

[BeautifulDisatr]

(((Rebecca42))) It makes complete sence to me. I feel the same way almost everyday and have since my childhood. (I'm 37 now) I remember I got into an argument with my step mother a few years back. I was sooo pist and hurt by her continous actions towards me, but when I was discussing the situation with my councilor it dawned on me; how can I expect my stepmom or anyone else I know be intuned with my likes or dislikes? How can I expect or hope people acknowledge my needs, wants, desires and/or concerns when I am constantly self sabotagizing my life (not on purpose but lead by fear), doubting who I am, hiding my true self from the world and everyone in it. I am very uncomfortable in my skin and doubt everyday my emotions, feelings and thoughts. I truly hate it.