I've felt this before

[Magiblack]

I've had anxiety and depression problems for years. Both problems were manageable for a long time, but the depression has creeped back up. I feel worthless. I have no drive and I know what I have to do to work on getting into university, get a job, etc... but most days I can't bear the thought of leaving the house. I lie to all my friends because I don't want to burden them when they all have their own things going on. I lie to my mom because I am her world and I know that my suffering would hurt her. I am 26 years old and I've been diagnosed with arthritis. I've watched that disease make my mom's life a living hell and now there are days that I literally can't get out of bed. I just feel bad all the time. I think I need help, but the mental health clinic here is useless. I just don't know how to cope anymore.

[hollyann]

Sorry I dont knowo where you are. But if you are in the US, you can file for disability based on the arthritus/depression/anxiety. If you file you should qualify for medicaid. And have better doctors or at least more doctors to choose from. I understand you not wantin to burden those around you, but chances are they know something is up and worrying about you more because you won't say anything. Alot of times we don't hide it as well as we think. I;d consider telling someone. There is alway a chat with this site peer to peer support it has quiet times and really bust times but you are welcome there as well.

Take care
Holly

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((((( EternallySilent )))))))))))))))))

Welcome and I agree with all Holly typed.

Have you a doctor that you can truly open up with? A minister perhaps?

Here is good, a caring site and we will do all we can, support you as much as we can.

Keep posting, venting is a good tool to be able to use, here I do it as many others.

Warmie