What do I do?

[birdman]

My wife is sleeping again. I'm thinking about starting work next week. I've got some laundry in the dryer. I just ate lunch.

If my wife decides to leave me after a couple of months of me returning to work what will I do?

I have no friends here in Ohio. No one. When I was young I had more friends then I could ever think of. I use to hang out at bars, make new friends. I was young, thin, good looking, and living at the beach in California.

But that only really lasted a couple of years. Many of my friends got married, moved. I kept trying to hang on to that single lifestyle but after a certain age you just can't do that.

Even with my wife still here I'm lonely. I don't know how to make friends. Since my wife and I have been married we've never gone to someone's house or had somebody over. We don't celebrate holidays, with the exception of saying "happy birthday" or "happy anniversary."

If it wasn't for the internet I'd have no one to talk to. I don't want to go out to bars. I don't know where else you meet people except maybe at work.

My wife and I use to go out for lunch, breakfast and sometimes dinner. We don't do that anymore.

I just feel so alone. My best friend just got married. He's got cancer and he had to get married because he also got canned from his 6 figure job. He needs insurance. I can't burden him with my issues.

I see myself working until the day I die now. And I'll probably have no one with me.

Happy New Year......I think.