Getting worse, no end

[Misty]

My mind and feelings seem to be on cruise control that I didn't set. I convince myself that I can think in a rational way but maybe it's a cruel joke or a thought mirage. From what others have said about their experiences it is common to get overwhelmed with the build up of just little things that happen. What I can't seem to find is a break...or maybe there was and I had another happening at that same moment so it didn't even have a chance.

I'm still waiting and praying that my disability claim will be approved so I can finally go to therapy. Not sure how much longer I can hold on. If it wasn't for a dear friend of mine or my husband (who tries, but sometimes blurts a really bad comment to me out of frustration) I'm sure the daisy's would be planted.

The "what's next" doesn't leave me enough room to move and get out of this. Damn, I don't know what else to say and I would set my laptop down to think a bit and come back later, but the other times I've done that everything is gone...webpage expired. Ha-ha, kinda ironic. My body is getting there, so all I have left is my mind to manage it and that is where I stand or sit or lay at this point.

If I should decide to give in and give up I would come here and know that this wonderful family will be here for me. Just want to make that clear as to how much my friends mean to me.

Love You All,
Misty

P.S. Dear friends are precious

[xn728]

((((((((((misty)))))))))),,,,,you must never talk of daisys being planted ,,the darkness is in charge of your thoughts and the cunning beast has made you blind ,,,you must open your mind ,,whilst your eyes cannot see ,,i neither have things to look forward to ,,or even a hope i can get better anymore ,,but i will not give in ,,,you must never give in either ,,i am nothing to you but words on this electronic paper you read just now ,,,but if you could see my face you would see the pain in my eyes as you yet another dear freind falls victim to another attack from the darkness that is our lives ,,ive said before we all walk this road together ,,at differant times and places ,,but were all in here together calling out to our freinds as you do now ,,,and im here in the darkness and i hear you my dear freind ,and i can only call back so you know that your not alone ,,please be strong (((((misty))))) we all need your words as you sometimes need our ,,,you are loved here dont forget that ,,turn your back on the demon and you will cause it pain ,,and it will know you have some strentgh ,,please take care ,,you will see some light soon ,just keep walking my freind ,,you have come so far ,dont give up now ,,
lots of love ken hugs (((((misty))))),,,,,xxx YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO US ALL TOO MISTY ,THAT IS FOR CERTAIN ,,NEVER FORGET !!!!!!

[Misty]

(((((Ken)))))

No, I don't intend to give up. I just have run out of ideas on how to possibly fix things to where there is a chance to get momento going again. But just being able to confide with others that are going through their own struggles and having all share theirs in return is a blessing for me. For today it has to be this way and if this is what it takes to meet people with hearts as ours...well I cannot regret that. There is so much more I wish I could put into words because what I write here is insignificant but it is all I can write for now.

You always have words that I truly understand. Thank you for each and every one of them.

Misty

It is only when we silent the blaring sounds of our daily existence that we can finally hear the whispers of truth that life reveals to us, as it stands knocking on the doorsteps of our hearts. ~K.T. Jong

[shatteredhopes]

If you are in the US, please contact your congressman's (or woman's) office if your disability claim is taking to much time...they have case workers on staff who handle constituent issues with the government and can hopefully expidite the process...

Sweetie, we are here for you! Hang on! I know that feeling of even the little things get overwhelming...I have cried because the grocer put the bread on the bottom of the bag and it got crushed! It does seem hard to catch a break, but hopefully something will come soon...meanwhile in the US there are community mental health agencies sometimes where you can get free or reduced rate therapy....if that helps you, I'm sure you've checked into that, but if they turned you down file an appeal to a higher administrator...that's what I intend to do to try to get help when I get my courage up.

*hugs*

Wishing you light and peace in your day...

[Mich]

((((Misty)))) Please keep fighting and don't let this demon capture you completely. I am sorry you are struggling...I wish I could take some of that struggle away from you. I hope that your claim gets approved and you get your therapy. Thinking of you....Mich.

[crystalgaze]

Hi there Misty! Just a hug to you: ((((((((((((((((((((( Misty )))))))))))))))))

I'm in a bit of a spot myself.... Here's to hoping we both find a solution! (I think we will!)

[xn728]

thinking of you (((((misty))))),,,dont know what your feeling just now ,,but my thoughts are with you ,,,please stay strong your very important to us all here ,,this you must remember ,,,you must never feel alone ,,,my dear freind ,,please stay safe ,,,and m,aybe we,ll talk soon hugs (((((misty))))),,,lots of love ken xxx

[xn728]

HI (((((MISTY ))))),i hope your doing ok ,,i dont like your silence ,,but im powerless to help you ,,,please be safe and know that myself and your freinds are thinking of you hugs (((misty)))),,,love ken xxx

[crystalgaze]

Hey Misty.... Just a how are ya.... + a (((((((((((( Misty )))))))))))))

Yeah.... sometimes I feel like your title....

[rachelsnv]

((((Misty)))) Please keep fighting and don't let this demon capture you completely. I am sorry you are struggling...I wish I could take some of that struggle away from you. I hope that your claim gets approved and you get your therapy. Thinking of you....Mich.

Well, I will just suggest to take a help of doctor as if one is going for some natural medication then also one have to first consult with therapist then can move further accordingly. I should suggest to get through proper medication which is very necessary.

Well, it is very necessary that one should be very confident in managing things that are some where affecting your mental state.

Thanks

[xn728]

You have been silent for a long time my dear freind ,although i know your safe ,i miss seeing you post ,many are missing from the forum just now
and like them i just want you to know im thinking of you ,,hugs (((((misty))))),,,,love ken and fran xxxx