Today I feel nothing..

[crybaby1086]

Today I feel nothing. No sadness, happiness, anger, nothing. I just want to curl up and sleep. Spent most of the day on the couch. Only going out to feed the horses and clean the barn. Even when I'm doing that I'm just shuffling along, barely moving. It takes a lot longer to finish and all I could think of was getting back to the couch. It dosen't help that I was pretty much alone the whole day. Although when people are around they just irritate me. I don't know what I want.

[crybaby1086]

Now I just want to SCREAM, SCREAM, SCREAM until my voice and throat are raw.

[Mich]

It's very good that you were able to get up and do your work in the barn and with the horses. I know how hard it can be to even move an inch when so depressed. You are fighting.
Today you feel like screaming. Is there a place you can go and scream and let it all out? Could you scream into your pillow? Releasing these screams might be good for you and help you to feel better.
Wishing you well today.