Depression and or something else?

[Nicky40]

Hi,
I was out of work for 2 years. Diagnosed with depression but was more to do with having to care for my mother with dementia when my dad went back to work.
Back at work now and that's going well.
But I feel nothing for my family. Except my son.
My sister has had serious health issues and now depression. She always talked more than me. About herself. It's non stop now. So I just don't really speak at all.
I want to be done with my family. Except my son. Feel like they have taken too much including me prioritising them over my son. My own fault I know but I didn't see it at the time. Don't feel any connections.
Don't know what to do besides work. Can't remember what I used to before looking after my mother.
Have had a month off work. Sorry in advance for TMI but haven't washed. Self medicating for a long time.
Not s*****dal. Just wouldn't mind if I wasn't around. Except for my son.
Genuinely feel no connection or affection for anyone except my son. Doesn't feel very different to before because parents pretty much ignored me for my life.
Sometimes I'd like to hook up with someone to feel that sort of connection but also have mixed feelings about that.
can anyone relate or share any thoughts at all?

[tiveeffective]

Believe in yourself. Take deep breaths and speak slowly snake game

[Spiritual1]

I can totally relate to you. I have a son too, who I am living for only. I don't even care for my husband right now or anyone else. I am dealing with a lot of back pain so pain pills help me get out of my head. I too had to take care of my mom who had a quadruple bypass last Sept., but is doing better now. I've lost everything- my job, my home, and my self esteem. Counseling is going......I am trying this to see other people's perspectives and how they deal with things. I hope you can feel better some day as I wish I can as well.

[kardep]

I can relate to both of you. It's like you're just going through the motions for the sake of your kid, and everything else feels empty or heavy. I haven’t been through the exact same stuff, but that numbness and disconnection hits home. Just wanted to say you're not alone.

[sadmouse]

I can totally relate to you. I have a son too, who I am living for only. I don't even care for my husband right now or anyone else. I am dealing with a lot of back pain so pain pills help me get out of my head. I too had to take care of my mom who had a quadruple bypass last Sept., but is doing better now. I've lost everything- my job, my home, and my self esteem. Counseling is going......I am trying this to see other people's perspectives and how they deal with things. I hope you can feel better some day as I wish I can as well.

Same here. Somehow, I've lost the connection to my family and husband, except for my daughter and our seven cats. I saw two psychologists, and both immediately said I should be hospitalized. Such nonsense. I was already hospitalized as a child just for saying I hated my life (it was a terrible experience), and I don’t even know why I went to see a psychologist again. I feel like all they ever do is try to hospitalize you instead of actually offering a helpful conversation.

I lost my job during COVID. I have one now, but it doesn’t fulfill me the way my previous work did. Life just feels heavy, and honestly, my daughter and our cats are probably the only things keeping me somewhat sane.

Sending strength to both of you.

[sadmouse]

Believe in yourself. Take deep breaths and speak slowly abella danger's chart

Sorry, but this is seriously one of the worst pieces of advice you can give to someone with depression..