Mentally: A Little Better, Physically: Beat Up!

[crystalgaze]

Okay. For the last few days, I've been on edge. I've mostly felt depressed & angry & okay/just here/a shell of myself/zoned/Huh? What?/dazed in between those two feelings. I didn't know what was going on for a while, & then Mother Nature gave me a little hint.

I guess I'm off to bed again. It's too early for me to be in bed, though.... (It's like 9:33am now! I'm only in bed if I'm sick with a cold or random allergy.)My head is killing me, I feel sort of feverish & my eyes are heavy today.... It feels like someone kicked me almost all over when I was sleeping. ~lol~ I'm sure it will pass, though.

I'm just sort of shocked 'cause I haven't felt beat up like this in a long time (& I wanted to finally start cleaning for Hurricane Season today + this weekend). My body is telling me "NO", so I guess I have to listen to it. Aw drat, & I finally got my mind together to get it done after having put it off for so long.... Aww....!

Edit: 07/04/2009 I feel better today. That was some headache!

[crystalgaze]

Well, I wasn't sure where to put this one.

The headache is back sort of, but I'm not sure if it's related to a day or two ago or is something totally different.

I think right now I don't know what to do or feel. It rained a little today; there was even some thunder. As far as I know, there were no fires here for the 4th of July.

However, the family pet was run over some time between late last night & this morning.

A strange thing happened. I got up this morning & I was feeling so-so. After watching TV for maybe an hour or 2, I turned it off 'cause I wasn't feeling too well again.

Just as I started not feeling well, I went downstairs to tell my Dad. About 5 minutes later, someone pulled in the yard to report that our dog (Wobbles) had been run over just down the road from where we live.

Our dog was not ours to begin with, but we loved him the same any way. My godfather had gotten the dog as a pet & he hadn't tied him up ever. One time when my godfather had left the dog in the apartment & went to work, he returned to find just about every thing torn up because Wobbles couldn't take not being outside. Where he used to live in an apartment had had a fence but then he moved in with us. (I don't remember why he did.)

Long story short is that when my godfather left here many years ago, he had made no plans on what he would do with the dog. He was very irresponsible in that regard.... He just randomly up & left. He was either already at the airport or at a stopoff point when he told my father via cell phone to take the dog to the animal shelter.

We felt Wobbles would have died sooner had he been taken to the animal shelter. That's how he became our family pet. We never really wanted a dog or any more pets. (We had had some cats, but they did not transition well when we moved & ran away at some point. They didn't like being stuck indoors either.)

We also didn't tie him up because we felt that would have killed him, too. Where my family lives now, there was only just enough space for the house. It didn't make sense to put a fence up, not only because someone kept throwing trash on our lawn but also due to limited space.

We did our best. Maybe it still wasn't enough....

[Monty]

Crystal,

Sorry about your loss of Wobbles.

I am sure that he couldn't have found a better home than the one that he had with you.

You posted "Our dog was not ours to begin with, but we loved him the same any way".

Kind of says it all.

Take care

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[crystalgaze]

I got through Wobbles' passing for the most part. The only thing is I still sort of look for him on the lawn.

As for the headaches, they're still there & they're a bit frequent, but I will work on that shortly.

I managed to get a glimpse of this show 1 morning about seizures & there was some interesting stuff on there. Unfortunately, I didn't see the whole thing, but it was on PBS' 2nd opinion, so I might be able to check it out online.

With the little that I did hear, I was a bit relieved 'cause I feel like freakish a lot, but some of what was said made me think, "Oh.... so that might be why that happens...."

[Mich]

I'm sorry about Wobbles. I know how sad I would be if I lost our pet. I hope you are feeling better soon.

[crystalgaze]

Thank you Mich. I'm glad someone understands. Thank you for your post.

[aim]

crystal... so sorry you lost your friend and pet!! So sorry...