It comes again, the feeling of "ANXIOUS".
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It comes again, the feeling of "ANXIOUS".
Don't know why. I've being feeling anxious again. I thought i get away from it already, but it still here. So sad. I lost my direction. Actually i thought I'm in love with my best friend girlfriend. I really don't know whether i love her or it just sexual driven thoughts. That day i were drunk. I send some stupid message to her again. I feel so shy and guilty now. I can't explain what is happening and the feeling inside. I only feel lost and so anxious. Can anyone guide me? Everything seems so heavy for me now. The medicine "xanax" is still there in the kitchen, but i want to use my own strength to fight it.
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jOhny - I understand anxiety all too well, friend. I understand your wanting to deal with this on your own, without help from medication, but I have to tell you that what medication did for me, was allow me to think more clearly and rationally, then I could find the answers from within myself. When I am anxious like that, I simply CANNOT think clearly, therefore, no decision could be made about anything by me.
If you do choose to take the medication, please know that you are not weak. You just realize that your anxiety is taking over your rational mind, and you are desiring to find it again.
I'm not pro, but that's my take, anyway. As for the feelings you may or may not have for your best female friend - what do you really think? I understand you saying that you fear that it could be sexually driven thoughts, but think about this... she is your friend, right? Means you must like her as a person. To me, the best relationships are people who are both best friends and lovers...
Good luck, jOhny - please let us know how it goes!
If you do choose to take the medication, please know that you are not weak. You just realize that your anxiety is taking over your rational mind, and you are desiring to find it again.
I'm not pro, but that's my take, anyway. As for the feelings you may or may not have for your best female friend - what do you really think? I understand you saying that you fear that it could be sexually driven thoughts, but think about this... she is your friend, right? Means you must like her as a person. To me, the best relationships are people who are both best friends and lovers...
Good luck, jOhny - please let us know how it goes!
JOhny,
I also have had a terrible time getting myself into the mindset of taking drugs for my depression. I fought for quite a while, too long, because something that could have been treated when it was relatively minor, ended up blowing up in my face.
Since I have depression, and am the only one of my family (other than my mother, a different ran for another day) who taking medication for my variety of mental illness diagnoses. I used to feel that I was the weakest link in my family. Which was odd, because I saw how my mom's mental illness hurt her, and our family for a lot of years.
Then I got the realization, that getting help for my illness, actually makes me one of the strongest links. I went out for medical advice, followed it and now am doing better.
Xanax was one of the first drugs that I was prescribed. I had gotten to the point that I was so anxious about everything. I became more and more afraid to be with people. The withdrawl was a big barrier in me getting help. I retreated so far into my own little world.
I was very anxious and suffered from many panic attacks during the course of the week. I finally got over the "weakest link" hump and managed to take the pills. They made quite a bit of difference in my life. I will admit that it was tough to get my mind wrapped around the taking of pills.
Though I know that it is not a universal statement, but the bottom line is that they worked for me. They have made it much easier for me to be able to live with myself. With the anxiety a bit more under control I found it much easier to be with people. I even am at the point that I can tell some of my friends what I am going through, and not worry that they are going to think that I am some sort of wing-nut to be avoided.
When it gets right down to it, it is funny how sometimes if you share some of the crap that you are dealing with with people. How often they are willing to tell you some of their stuff. You have to be careful but I have been very surprised how supportive people have been when I have let them into my little world.
I can assure you that this forum, even though we don't see each other face to face, everyone is very supportive of each other.
Feel free to lean on us. I am sure (as sure as you can be of anything) that we won't let you down.
I also have had a terrible time getting myself into the mindset of taking drugs for my depression. I fought for quite a while, too long, because something that could have been treated when it was relatively minor, ended up blowing up in my face.
Since I have depression, and am the only one of my family (other than my mother, a different ran for another day) who taking medication for my variety of mental illness diagnoses. I used to feel that I was the weakest link in my family. Which was odd, because I saw how my mom's mental illness hurt her, and our family for a lot of years.
Then I got the realization, that getting help for my illness, actually makes me one of the strongest links. I went out for medical advice, followed it and now am doing better.
Xanax was one of the first drugs that I was prescribed. I had gotten to the point that I was so anxious about everything. I became more and more afraid to be with people. The withdrawl was a big barrier in me getting help. I retreated so far into my own little world.
I was very anxious and suffered from many panic attacks during the course of the week. I finally got over the "weakest link" hump and managed to take the pills. They made quite a bit of difference in my life. I will admit that it was tough to get my mind wrapped around the taking of pills.
Though I know that it is not a universal statement, but the bottom line is that they worked for me. They have made it much easier for me to be able to live with myself. With the anxiety a bit more under control I found it much easier to be with people. I even am at the point that I can tell some of my friends what I am going through, and not worry that they are going to think that I am some sort of wing-nut to be avoided.
When it gets right down to it, it is funny how sometimes if you share some of the crap that you are dealing with with people. How often they are willing to tell you some of their stuff. You have to be careful but I have been very surprised how supportive people have been when I have let them into my little world.
I can assure you that this forum, even though we don't see each other face to face, everyone is very supportive of each other.
Feel free to lean on us. I am sure (as sure as you can be of anything) that we won't let you down.
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