Well, depression attacks life.. part 1

[RelishingWaterfall]

Hi! I dont know how many of you have read my previous post about how how my depression has been setting in. I had named the post, "Just want to get back to normal". Ofcourse that didnt really happen. I fought with all my friends and ignored everyone after fighting despite of the fact that it was my mistake and I should be the one to apologize.

I set myself on the righteous path and thought of a friend whom I had taekn for granted. I messaged him and called, but no apparent response. After 3-4 days, I again messaged, "Truce?".. And guess what his response was..?

"Hahahah, you really thought that stupid fight would last? How are you doing? When is your exam?''

Just like that. Without me saying sorry, we were fine. We are lucky to have friends like that huh? Apparently not. We were chatting.. I told him that iam sure he missed me. He asked me why did i block him from everywhere but i told him that i hadnt and I had actually cut off from the world and deactivated all social media accounts. But he wasnt ready to believe me. Then it started.

The first thing he said was:
I was ignoring you bcoz i felt hurt and wanted to make you feel how it felt to be ignored.

After a long discussion on that, he changes his words and said that he was just doing it for fun. Well, I thought ok.. It was a game for him. Like this reality show he likes where we plot against each other. It messed with my mind terribly. He gave me 5 different excuses as to why he didnt answer my messages and calls prior truce text, the last one being,"I didnt do it for fun., It was a typo error." I mean dude how silly can you be? I guess I should be posing this question to myself instead of him. All i could was get lost and never contact me again. Here I was, worried that I had been severely rude, finding it difficult to cope up with the things going on and there he was playing big brother with me? Thats so utterly stupid of me!

I dont want him to read all this and make fun of me again but we have been so much together. I have been for him always, I have heard his crap through all his bad moods and now I now I know i was been taken granted of.

You know they say, bad times show you the good people in your life. I dont know if I should be sad that i lost him (Iam afraid we are both made from the same mud and that is we dont give up on people easily, he will contact me again or I might) or should I be happy that I know who stuck around? (Noone!)

[NickStokes]

If he is true friend, you will have to apologize and he will understand