Absent of the forum - Absent of my life

[karolanne]

Hi everyone,

I'm sorry, but I'm kinda absent of the forum these days. I'm kinda being infanuated by Tom Hiddleston. So, all my time, I dream in my head, even at work. I sit in front of my computer, do nothing except to dream in my head.

Silly, huh? I'm so ashamed to have a crush on a star. But hey, do I have to remember you that I suffer from mental illness? The last time it happened, it's been about 3 years ago and it lasted almost 6 months!

Take care everyone.

[Frame]

I'm glad your talking about it, Karolanne.

[karolanne]

Thanks.

It's pretty intense. I have butterflies in stomach, bad sleep, can't eat anything... I've lost about 6 pounds last week.

Last time it happened, I've lost about 50 pounds!

I'm a freak!

[eloise1974]

I don't think you're a freak. A lot of people get infatuated with stars. Just keep talking about it and you'll be okay.

[karolanne]

I think this time, it will be less long since I already started to get my appetite back...

[schizorobin]

This is funny but I also had infatuated with celebrity, he's Japanese rocker well you may don't know him, the weird thing is he doesn't even look like a man but actually pretty feminine like woman, and he maybe gay ( just my wish so he won't be with any bitches) or it's only my delusions, lol. but I think I'm not an ordinary fangirl, coz my infatuation makes me has lost interest to guys in reality, I'm not interest in making relationship since I'm antisocial anyway.

So I think your infatuated to Tom Hiddleston is not weird at all, as long as your dream about him can makes you happy and brighten up your day even though we're just living in fantasy.

[karolanne]

Hi there,

I'm kinda "glad" to see that I'm not the only one who can talk about it. Thanks for your confidence.

I don't really like to dream in my head because it keeps me from really living my life. I dreamed in my head for many years when I was a child and a teenager instead of really living my life.

Take care.

[karolanne]

OMG, since last night, I just can't dream anymore. Nothing seems to make me feel good. I'm going back into my usual "suicidal state". All night, I dreamed that my appartement was full of garbage bags everywhere...

yuck

[Frame]

You mean, you dreamt you were in my house?

But seriously, I know what you mean about building castles in your mind. Sometimes, when there aren't many real options that's what keeps us going. Those dreams can help remove us from reality, but they help keep us in touch with what our hearts desire when reality ddoesn't much resemble that. We need to stay in touch with our heart.

[karolanne]

Hi Frame,

My appartement is a mess, lol, perhaps a mirror of your house. lol

Since last evening, the ridiculous of everything I have been dreaming in my head since few days hit me in the face.

Your last post makes me see how sad my life is. I have almost nothing that my heart wants. I haven't been in a man's arms for years (about 10)...

I don't know, I do everything I can to get a good life, and I mean, I have good stufs, I can work (wich wasn't always the case). I can relatively go well in the society. Is that all? Is it the best I can have in my life and I have to get sufficience and happy with that?

The problem with dreaming in my head is that when I can't dream anymore, the sadness and pathetic reality of my life hit me like a truck in the face.

[CrazyLady17]

Hey there,

Hope your okay.
Am thinking of you.
Your doing well!

Keep reaching out when you need too.
We are all listening and I care.

(((Hugs)))

[karolanne]

Hi there,

I read your recents posts and I agree with Frame, you're much more positive and you're making great progresses.

I was absent because we had 2 days of snow storm, missing electricity and everything. lol Yeah, that is the kind of winter we have here.

Take care.

hugs

[CrazyLady17]

Hi there,

Aww thank you, and thank you that makes me smile a lot...
Not doing well though at the moment- back in hospital after attempting suicide

Bless!
Lol. You got everything back on now? (I hope)...
Aha that's Canada for you eh?

(((Hugs)))

[karolanne]

Hi,

At hospital, you are well? I mean food and heat and everything you need?

Take care.

[CrazyLady17]

Would like to say I'm well... But no I'm not..
The hospital are thinking about admitting me to hospital for months... As they are really concerned about my well-being and because I am pregnant and attempting suicide
It's horrible!

But yes I am drinking and eating well thank you

How are you these days?