Finding it hard to get out of a hole

[Kelash0111]

Hi, I'm a newbie here but needed to find an avenue to express.

I have been depressed most of my life but only recently seeked medical advice. Partly from denial and feeling weak. But I have now made that medical step and it was great on the medication for a while but now.......

My trigger this time is rumours! Mostly these don't bother me but this time it has as my close friends seem to feel that they are true It has been such a long few weeks and there hasn't been a day where i haven't had a tear in my eye. I try to keep myself occupied but my thoughts always go back to it.

I am not one for confrontation. even though there have been times where i would have loved to confront my so called friends and ask why?

Not sure what advice you can all give but I need something ;(

[boray]

I'm sorry you're having a bad day. It's really hard to focus in getting better when all u can think about are the negative things in your life. I do that all the time and I just get more depressed. Do u think u will have the courage to talk to any of ur friends about the rumor? Try to start with one friend, I think that will get some load off of your chest.

Me, I can't tell my friends what happened to me. I know they will want to help, but I'm too embarrassed to tell them my mistakes. So I'm suffering, and letting my emotions out through this forum.

Hope u feel better soon...