It keeps happening over and over

[Sadie0510]

Every year is the same, the cyles never change. I am so alone again. I dont know why I do this, Its like I almost want to be in pain. I hurt someone I cared about, I swore I would never do it again.
Our relationship was great, for the first time in a long time I didnt feel alone, and now, I dont know if he will ever want to talk to me again.
I get it, and I wont call, if he hates me, I'll understand, if I was him, I would never want to see me again.
So here I am, in the fall, preparing to face the winter again, on my own.
There is just so much pain, I wish he could just hold my hand, and make it go away.

[Ste]

Hi, I sent you a message - i know how you feel and I am here to help if you want a friend