Livinlost-Challenge Journal

[livinlost]

I am a 47 year old female suffering from Chronic Depression for the last 20+ years....I feel unmotivated, unloved, lonely despite having 3 kids who are grown and supportive...also have 3 grandchildren whom I love immensely...but it takes every bit of my strength to share what little energy I have with them...I work full time...my oldest son still lives with me (with his girlfriend) which I cannot accept very well. I have a full time job as well. So as long as I keep busy...I do not have to think about what a failure I feel I am, even though logically I know that I am not.

So, being adventurous-checked out this chatroom..and I liked it...
Jazz suggested that I should "get out there, have more fun" sooooo-
I have asked for a few challenges to help me out!

Here are 3 that I will begin tomorrow....

From Jazz I challenge you to write out poems about how you feel everyday. longer than thirty words as well for one month
(will do my best for 30 words Jazz!)

From Guest6868 - go to some nice place and take 20 pictures and then make up 20 names for all those pictures as if they were piece of art
(a picture a day for 20 days Guest6868)


From: Beautiful Mind - run long distances it will increase your adrenaline "gradually" and will make you feel satisfied and happy for sometime
(we changed run to walk for 1 hour a day for 1 month)


Stay tuned for progress reports - really need your support and encouragement...and will be available to any who need to chat!

Jo

[livinlost]

I wake up groggy late in the morn
Look in the mirror, and all I see is scorn
I take note of my day, so much to do
I pray for motivation, as I begin my first room

As the day goes on, I have only 1 task done
My kids are out, and I just want to lay about
As I lay about, I am filled with confusion
Because I feel my life is just an illusion.

With only one challenge complete, and two more to go
Tomorrows a new day for me to grow.
Before I lay my head, I pray to God for the courage to move ahead.