A moment of weakness and frustration
Posted: Sat May 23, 2020 10:27 am
Recently, my girlfriend and I received some bad news. Namely that our apartment has bed bugs. This had really set my girlfreind on edge to the point where she felt so disgusted that she didn't want to sit down anywhere. But after a while through the day, things seemed to have calmed down a little, especially after the inspector laid out what we would need to do.
Then, we received a letter from our apartment management talking about "Five day notice with intent to terminate lease agreement." Basically the notice was to let us know about what we needed to do and that if we didn't rectify the situation with the bed bugs, our lease agreement would be terminated.
This sent my girlfriend into a downward spiral of her emotions. Didn't help the fact that I was trying to figure the situation out myself. And after a while, she was in a depressive slump to the point where she said, "Just kill me. Just let me die. I'm destined to suffer, struggle, and be alone. Why can't I just die?"
In a moment of frustration, I started to yell at her; "you know what? When things go bad it's not a sign that you're meant to be sad and to suffer. It means life is chaotic and shit happens. You just need to learn to deal with it. You tell me that I need to grow up and grow a pair. You know what? You need to grow up and learn to deal with shit."
And now, it seems that I've made things worse with her saying that she doesn't love me and that no one will understand her because everyone she told about the bullying from her classmates and her mother said the same thing; "deal with it."
Now I have to figure out how I'm going to deal with this. I love her so very much. It's just that I wish she could handle being in a crisis better. And given what I'm doing, I do feel like I'm handling two crisses; the bed bugs and her bipolar issues. So what can I do?
Then, we received a letter from our apartment management talking about "Five day notice with intent to terminate lease agreement." Basically the notice was to let us know about what we needed to do and that if we didn't rectify the situation with the bed bugs, our lease agreement would be terminated.
This sent my girlfriend into a downward spiral of her emotions. Didn't help the fact that I was trying to figure the situation out myself. And after a while, she was in a depressive slump to the point where she said, "Just kill me. Just let me die. I'm destined to suffer, struggle, and be alone. Why can't I just die?"
In a moment of frustration, I started to yell at her; "you know what? When things go bad it's not a sign that you're meant to be sad and to suffer. It means life is chaotic and shit happens. You just need to learn to deal with it. You tell me that I need to grow up and grow a pair. You know what? You need to grow up and learn to deal with shit."
And now, it seems that I've made things worse with her saying that she doesn't love me and that no one will understand her because everyone she told about the bullying from her classmates and her mother said the same thing; "deal with it."
Now I have to figure out how I'm going to deal with this. I love her so very much. It's just that I wish she could handle being in a crisis better. And given what I'm doing, I do feel like I'm handling two crisses; the bed bugs and her bipolar issues. So what can I do?