supporting my partner while i am away on an internship
Posted: Sun Sep 07, 2014 1:07 am
I have been with my partner for 6 years now and he has dealt with depression and anxiety his entire life. He goes through times that are really bad and is currently in the worst one I have experienced with him. I am currently away on at my dream internship, but this also means he is at home and 5,000 miles away from me. We have gotten to the point where we both agreed that he needs to seek more help and we have now decided that he will contact me when he is ready. For the past couple of weeks, our conversations have been short and always end in me crying and him getting upset so it seemed like this was a better option. I'm just having a really hard time dealing with all of this and trying to focus on this internship that I worked so hard to get.
Things have also been difficult because he has a really hard time finishing things. He has been "in flux" as far as work/education goes for almost the entirety of our relationship and as soon as he almost finishes something, he gives up every single time. I am a highly motivated individual that has a tendency to overload on responsibilities. We are very different people but when we are together and he is in a good space, we have an amazing connection and never get sick of each other. I just feel like when I left to go on my internship has opened up the floodgates a bit and has given him a chance to realize a lot of things that he had been leaning on me for while I was around. I just want to equally give him the support he needs but also stay healthy myself and be able to put my all into this internship. Things are just tough right now.
Things have also been difficult because he has a really hard time finishing things. He has been "in flux" as far as work/education goes for almost the entirety of our relationship and as soon as he almost finishes something, he gives up every single time. I am a highly motivated individual that has a tendency to overload on responsibilities. We are very different people but when we are together and he is in a good space, we have an amazing connection and never get sick of each other. I just feel like when I left to go on my internship has opened up the floodgates a bit and has given him a chance to realize a lot of things that he had been leaning on me for while I was around. I just want to equally give him the support he needs but also stay healthy myself and be able to put my all into this internship. Things are just tough right now.
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