new too
Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 9:21 pm
Outwardly I have nothing to be depressed about but I am a mess. I have had depression on and off for 38 years, since my first pregnancy but only really diagnosed about 5 years ago when that same daughter was the one to pick up on the fact that I needed help. I have been on antidepressants since then with some success, but since I began seeing my psychiatrist this yearI have been tapering off these, preparatory to going on some better ones. I have several [too many to list] physical health problems, most notably fibromyalgia, TMJ, chronic sinusitis and chronic migraines. The medication for these interacts with the antidepressants hence the change. I am on 20 different medications and my psychiatrist is trying to see if he can rationalise these.
I have just begun seeing a psychologist to help with pain management. This was under control until an injury [cause unknown] to both knees three years ago stopped my usual practice of walking for half an hour twice a week plus square dancing once a week. My life has gone off the rails in a big way since then, especially as other factors have made it one of the most stressful periods of our lives. I am seeing a physiotherapist about my knees but it all takes time.
This is the short version of my tale. I am tempted to be suicidal at times but have a beautiful 7 year old granddaughter and a gorgeous 4 year old grandson and do not want to be a bad role model to them. That is sometimes all that keeps me here. I have a husband of 40 years who [u]tries[/u] to be supportive but at times its like being married to a brick wall or a block of wood.
I have just begun seeing a psychologist to help with pain management. This was under control until an injury [cause unknown] to both knees three years ago stopped my usual practice of walking for half an hour twice a week plus square dancing once a week. My life has gone off the rails in a big way since then, especially as other factors have made it one of the most stressful periods of our lives. I am seeing a physiotherapist about my knees but it all takes time.
This is the short version of my tale. I am tempted to be suicidal at times but have a beautiful 7 year old granddaughter and a gorgeous 4 year old grandson and do not want to be a bad role model to them. That is sometimes all that keeps me here. I have a husband of 40 years who [u]tries[/u] to be supportive but at times its like being married to a brick wall or a block of wood.