just introducing myself

[lonelysoul]

Hello there. I don't know what quite to say. I always feel a little awkward talking about myself. How do u speak good of yourself when u really don't think good about yourself. Sigh! Well lets see, I am 31yrs old. I became a mom for the first time 9 months ago. I am married two yrs. Sounds nice on paper. I have been feeling alot more depressed in recent months. But I think I have been suffering with it on and off most of my life. Guess I joined because I don't have one person in my life I can talk to about what I am feeling and going through. Was hoping I can share my story and meet others here. And feel so not alone. Thanks for reading....

[shatteredhopes]

Welcome to the forums! I would suspect that having a baby after suffering from depression other times in your life, you might have started again with post-partum depression...and sometimes when everything is going well or it seems like it is, but there still feels something missing, something not quite right...I know I had felt that way at one point, when like you, everything looked good from the outside, and I just couldn't figure out why I was so sad...for me, I've had traumatic episodes in past that were creeping up...

Are you getting therapy or seeing a doctor? Anti-depressants may help if its a chemical imbalance or stemming from post-partum depression....can hang on in some people...

Anyway, welcome. Like you, I have no one in my life who understands, but have found much support, caring, and understanding here that has helped me a great deal...hoping you find the same.

Wishing you light and peace in your day...

[crystalgaze]

Hello there & welcome! You have made a step in the right direction! Please take a look around & see if there is any thing that grabs your eye!

Looking forward to hearing more about you!

Take care!

[lonelysoul]

Welcome to the forums! I would suspect that having a baby after suffering from depression other times in your life, you might have started again with post-partum depression...and sometimes when everything is going well or it seems like it is, but there still feels something missing, something not quite right...I know I had felt that way at one point, when like you, everything looked good from the outside, and I just couldn't figure out why I was so sad...for me, I've had traumatic episodes in past that were creeping up...

Are you getting therapy or seeing a doctor? Anti-depressants may help if its a chemical imbalance or stemming from post-partum depression....can hang on in some people...

Anyway, welcome. Like you, I have no one in my life who understands, but have found much support, caring, and understanding here that has helped me a great deal...hoping you find the same.

Wishing you light and peace in your day...

Thnx for replying.
I haven't gone to the doctor yet. I was thinking maybe I could deal with it myself. But lately, I've been thinking I should go. Its becoming overwhelming. I hate feeling like this. This is supposed to be a wonderful time for me. I'm supposed to be enjoying being a new mother. And I love my son so much but I just can't get it together. You know? Yes I think I will go see someone.
So this site has helped you? I am so glad to hear that. That really does give me hope. Especially when you just have one of those days you can log on and have some kind of comfort..

[Mel234]

Hi!

Welcome to the forums, I'm pretty new here as well but having a warm welcome is nice!

[Monty]

Welcome,

It is tough having a little one. When my first child was born I was so into having a child. It was one of the happiest times in my life.

Unfortunately it wasn't the same experience with my second child. It wasn't diagnosed quickly enough, but I had post-partum depression. I often wonder if it wasn't caught earlier (it was well over a year) that things might have gone easier.

It sounds like a trip to your doctor might be a good idea for you to follow through with.

It seems like a recurring point in the first posts of most people that started out here, that they want to be able to touch base with people and have some friends.

Can assure you that you have found that here.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((((((( lonelysoul )))))))))))))))))

Just adding a 'welcome' and a hug for you. Hope to see you posting more.

Warmie